My life has been steadily collapsing over the last few years due to Chronic Depression that I didn't know I had until I was diagnosed last year when I felt very suicidal.Since then I have made tremendous improvements on my own and just recently with a bit of help from a therapist.I have overcome the suicidal thoughts, the not wanting to do anything (let alone live), panic attacks, and I have my Health Anxiety under control, which was the source of great mental anguish for a long time.My last hurdle is psychosomatic disorder which are very disturbing random physical symptoms that the doctors cannot find any physical causes for.Basically it's my body telling me I need to address repressed memories etc..So I have been doing a lot of emotional processing which has been working very well, but very slowly as I am working on my own with this. I know that in order to rebuild my life completely I need to discover what my purpose is, in the very least a reason for living.But I am so disconnected to who I am that I am finding it difficult to sit down and put it all together on paper and make any sense of this. My external reality has been a mess for a long time, so I have decided to give myself until end of this year to drastically change my life around: because I know one thing for sure I cannot continue my life as I have for the last few years. I was wondering if anyone has been through the same and it would be helpful to know how you got through it? Any insights or feedback on how I can move forward would be so helpful to overcome this resistance that I just can't seem to shift to get my life back on track.