Tired of feeling this way!

[Livingfree1986]

I have been dealing with depression since I was in my early 20s. Im going to be 50 this year.

I never feel that I am good enough at anything I do. I blow up at the smallest things at home with my family. Then go to my room slam the door and ball myself to sleep for all the terrible things of said.

I have been to numerous councelors. I always seem to find something that annoys me to where I dont go back.

I struggle daily to get my house in order. The stress is just building up to where I need to do something about it. Any suggestions??

[Hidden]

Haven't you got anything that you like to do or would like to do?

[Livingfree1986 in reply to Hidden]

Yes, I love to garden. I just dont have the energy to do anything. Im so overwhelmed with all the things I should be doing I dont know where to start.

[Hidden]

Living Free,

It is important that you go back and see your GP, make a list of your fears and concerns, depression can lead us down an ice road and we cannot stop slipping and falling.

Explain what went on when you went to therapy, you need to be seen and you need to understand they have heard it all before and given that you need to accept their help.

BOB

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Livingfree,

Welcome to our supportive community. Well done for taking a brave step out of your comfort zone to reach out for help. As you have begun to find folks here are only too willing to come alongside you and share from their personal journeys and experiences. You are obviously having a difficult time right now, but I do support the other members have given to you, go back to your GP and explain your situation and ask for help, there's a whole range of therapies available to you, it's not a one-size-fits-all approach.

In the meantime, do check out our Pinned Post section for free mental health guides, international crisis support helplines etc.

If you live in the UK:

MIND UK charity: Helpline Tel: [phone] [e-mail] Text: 86463 mind.org.uk/information-sup...

The Samaritans Tel: 116 123 [24 hours line]

NHS: 999 [Emergencies]

NHS 111 [Non-Emergencies]

SANEline Tel: [phone] [4.30pm – 10.30pm daily] sane.org.uk/

Keep in touch!

Best wishes, MAS Nurse

[hypercat54]

Hi you can change things like this. I know because I have. I had a problem every month or so with people and they all seemed to be having a go at me for some reason and I got upset and would argue back or would storm off.

I was speaking to a good friend who pointed out that it must be me and the way I was behaving which triggered it as it can't be everyone else. It was tough love and I decided she was right. So what I do now if everyone seems to be picking on me I look at my own behaviour first. I do not storm off now but sit and deal with it. I might take myself off to a toilet or something for a minute to take a bit of time out but do return having calmed myself down.

You can change your own behaviour but you have to make a concerted effort. I am sure things will improve for you if you can do this. x