Sick of feeling sick.

[MaisyMay2]

I'm so tired of feeling so unhappy, i'm so tired of worrying all the damn time, i'm just so so tired of everything.

I feel mentally bloody exhausted, these past 6 months have been massive. In this time i have left sixth form, got an apprenticeship, passed my driving test, moved house, lost friends, soon to start college and i swear i'm leaving stuff out. I have pushed myself to the limit, and i have gone way, waay out of my comfort zone but it's too much! I have pushed too hard! All these little things have just built up and i just feel it's swallowed me whole.

The thing that sets me off most is i am stuck. In order to make things better, i need to push myself further but i've reached my limit, i just don't have the effort to push myself anymore. I'm unhappy at work, so that means quitting work which is a massive thing, i want to get a part time job, which is also a massive thing reapplying for jobs, I've gotten so bad i've come to the realisation that i need help but seeing anyone professional is again, a massive thing. There is simply no easy way out of this!

How do i push through this? I know what i need to do to make things better but how to i get the effort, the courage, to do it? All i want to do is curl up and run away, never show my face to anything ever again.

[WhiteAlice]

Maisy! Slow down. You've done so much. Now it's time to take a deep breath and relax! Treat yourself to just a little Maisy-time. Do something quiet that you love or do nothing at all! Changes can be wonderful and very becessay, but you're going to burn yourself out completely. Take on the next hurdle only after a recharging break!

[Hidden]

I agree totally with WA. There is a time to push and a time to relax. This is your time to relax and recharge your batteries. Batten the hatches down for a while and just coast along. You will feel read to make more changes then.

[MaisyMay2 in reply to Hidden]

Only problem is i need to leave work now, but i can't leave until i get another job which means all of them things! Theres no time for myself

[Hidden]

Well if it's that bad why not see your doctor and get a sick note for a few weeks etc. This will give you a breathing space in which to gather your thoughts and start your new job search.

[Candyfield]

As I was reading this .it fault God slow down .I've bin like it all my life .u will burn yr braine out like I did mine .it will catch up wiv u wen u get my age .don't over do it.like the other one said .get sick note take time out.have a lay in watch a film wiv crips chocolate. Go shopping. Take time on u .then u b finking straght .slow down 😊

[AMAC82]

Hello, I can relate to how you are feeling, it is very important to prioritise what's important - your health. Have you tried any strategies for your worrying-writing things down with the possible outcomes, having a set time to worry, there's a lot of resources out there now e.g. worry tree, I've had a lot of therapy to help me, if you can get a good counsellor it can make all the difference, mental health is so much more tiring than physical. I too agree with WhiteAlice. Hope things improve soon.

[MaisyMay2 in reply to AMAC82]

Yeah, my mum and me have spoken about things and she said if it's that bad i should just leave work now but i'm just so worried no one will hire me if i am unemployed. I honestly just don't know. Ive also spoken to my mum saying i'm ready to go to the gp but she hasnt done a great deal about that

[AMAC82]

MaisyMay2 Have you asked your Mum to go to the GP with you? Is she a good support for you? Can the issues be resolved at work? Have you tried uploading your CV on websites like reed? There are pros and cons to being unemployed, you have more time to job search, you'll also be available to start straight away without giving a notice period. Good luck.

[MaisyMay2 in reply to AMAC82]

Yeah i asked her to come along with me and she said she would, shes my only support! I am very close with my mum and shes had to put up with my anxious bouts for years. Shes good to talk to but she loses her patience.

Issues at work, well the thing is there is hardly any issues - i am the issue! I just simply do not enjoy it there, i hate being shut in a crampt dark office, i get so bored just sitting there all day. I complain i don't get enough work and i get bored so they give me more and it's too much and i get stressed! They can't win to be honest i think it's honestly just a bad environment for me. Colleagues are constantly gossiping and sniping, the office is a box room, no windows, no nothing and i struggle with full time hours.

I joined reed a few days back as well as indeed and i'm searching daily for jobs, just the thing is there is NO jobs, nothing. Everyone today at work was saying how hard it is for their partners to get work at the minute. Just feel like everythings against me right now.

Thank you so much for your replies