I don't believe in luck. I feel so unlucky all the time...

Hard work gets me nowhere. No LUCK n love life I have no friends for like a decade .. I have no money my life just suck. I'm just not going anywhere. How can someone like me enjoy life? Ill just stare at people smile everyday and I can only feel jealousy seriously I don't know why am I even here on this earth!! Too scared to die....

[togetherwestand]

Hello silentwinterland,

I echo your pain and struggle as I’ve suffered the similar ache. However, there is hope and with persistence there will be friends and love entering your life. Have you tried going out of your comfort zone to meet people? Sometimes, those moments bring out our strengths therefore attracting people. It takes time and believe me it’s still hard for me. Little by little, you’ll gain support. Best of luck.

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I'm too shy to make friends I can only talk for a day and I'm in a nerv wreck so I give up making friends... I'm the kid always staying in the corner stare at people enjoy themselves..

[Stilltrying_]

You are incredibly talented, (witness your last post) . I mean extremely talented. You have a gift. Believe in yourself please.

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Thank you at least my talent make me fill up my boredom xD

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi Silentwinterland, I am sorry you feel this way. Stilltrying is right, you are extremely talented. I like painting, but I am nowhere near as good as you. Please believe in yourself. You have so much to offer. Do stay on this supportive forum .Take care and best wishes.

[tee8077]

I read your post today when it was 2 seconds posted, I thought people more stable than me would reply and help you.... (quality not quantity) I will be 50 years old next year, I coulda written your message myself ! I hope you are ok...sending empathy and complete understanding of what you're saying and the question you are asking. There are "friends" (pffft) you are not jealous, you are envious, there is a difference. Everything happens for a reason, the reason I am on the internet at this time on a weekend is YOU!. You are not alone, you are important and we need you, you might help me next week? or someone who needs you, as I have today, thank you xx

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Thanks still don't know the difference between jealousy and envious xD

Oh and thanks for being their for me

Its hard to find a job when I have no job experience...

[Strongheartforever]

This may sound harsh but your choices have led you to where you are. I’m telling you this to help you. You must take action to change your life. No one else can do it for you. You are stuck in your head too much. That’s a dangerous place to be. You must busy yourself and work toward a goal. Get out of your head. Get out of your house. Get into life. Simple things bring happiness. Love requires risk. Be fun, be free, be yourself. Let go of blame. Your parents aren’t responsible for your happiness. You are. Start building relationships. Start building your life. Forgive yourself for wasting time and torturing yourself. You are forgiven. You are innocent. You are free. You are loved and lovable. You can change the world for the better. Your journey is leading you to wisdom, freedom, joy, love, but you must let go of the negativity. Let it go!!

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Okay well I'm enjoying tasty food right now that's something xDlots of resturant in my area. I don't want to stay at home for too long anyway. Working on my art can let me stop thinking about all the bad things ..hopefully ill get a job soon

[Hidden]

Thank you so much! 😆😆

[Strongheartforever in reply to Hidden]

Anytime! You sound better already!! Keep up that momentum. Progress equals happiness. Keep moving toward positivity and getting a little better every day.

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Ok!😆 I finally let the past go

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I’m so proud of you!! Excellent work!!

[HeroOfChaos]

I know how you feel as have been there myself mid 2016, but there's always hope for everyone, you have friends here who will listen & not judge you. Believe me there's light @ the end of any dark tunnel, you just have to find something to hold on to, I found 2 things, but in the process nearly lost both of those things - crazy ain't it? Thankfully I stuck it out & got the help I needed with the support of my husband (partner @ the time) & got diagnosed with 3 disorders

Please don't give up, I dunno where I would be if I had, most likely in a box in the ground, not supervisor @ work & celebrating my 1st yr of marriage this mnth