Heaviness...

[Lu2356]

Today I am feeling the after effects of yesterday. What an emotional ride with anxiety and what may depression... my mom is on the same ride and I try my best to keep her safe and remind of her faith with God and that bc of her, I am the woman that I am, strong and resilient. We have had our ups and downs. Now as an adult, I realize she was and sometimes is, as scared as I am. The difference between her and I is that she won’t show it...

[Rick1on1]

Hi,

Do you want to share what your anxieties are?

You mention your mom but not your Dad - is he still around?

[Lu2356 in reply to Rick1on1]

My dad passed away from cirrhosis about 6 years ago. During the last two years of his life I got to know him better. He was a great man, did his best raise us growing up, and was devoted to God.

[Rick1on1 in reply to Lu2356]

Glad to hear that you reconciled with your Father. Where did all the abuse you experienced come from?

[Lu2356 in reply to Rick1on1]

From different family members and bullies at school.

[Rick1on1 in reply to Lu2356]

I am sorry to hear that!

There are many mean people out there, who gain empty fulfillment from hurting others.

Can you accept that?

If so, can you also accept that the abuse is a problem that they must overcome? Although, you are the victim; don't let their behaviour control your life.

I know that creating new relationships is going to be tough because Trust will be difficult to cultivate. However, you need to try because true happiness comes from loving and being loved.

Hope this helps?

[Lu2356 in reply to Rick1on1]

Yes, I have discovered over the years that trust is a big issue for, but now since I have given my life to God, am I able to forgive and do my best to move on. Anxiety has always been a part of my life, but it does not define who I am. I have also, accepted that people are people and aren’t perfect. Each day I move closer to love...

[Rick1on1 in reply to Lu2356]

That is awesome Lu!

Put yourself in its path and it will find you

Good luck and take care!