Maybe it’s in our genes? 27 with a pretty good ..... life but still a .............. who can’t or maybe doesn’t want to snap out of it!

[Justliz90]

Most days are good! But the down days are really .... To a point I want to run away and leave everybody behind. Thinking they’d be so much happier if I wasn’t around. I feel I drag everyone who loves me down and can see these negative traits in My 8 year old daughter. Something needs to be done where we don’t rely on ......... anti depressants which I don’t think helps, so we can help her generation. I don’t want to hurt myself. This stupid mentality of mine is really starting to .... me off after 27 years though. Seriously what went so wrong in my life to make me feel like this? I have it all, married to a beautiful man, who is so amazing and would make any wife proud. Constantly I don’t feel good enough, not his doing, just he could definitely get a girl with a much clearer head. My poor kids have to deal with this beast of a .......... one day and Mary........ Poppins the next. Currently listening to meditation music while my 10month old plays, and 2 year old naps. I woke up in a good mood then argued with hubby, a ..... argument, he needed to take the car, now that’s sent me in a ....... mood I can’t shake and have considered a break may be the best option! What the ...... How does a break help? I love this guy! I don’t want to leave him. What the ....... is going on in my head? I need help! 🙁 Starting the gym next week. I know that’ll help, so long as I stick it out, which I can’t seem to do with anything I attempt! Another ...... flaw, I want a personality change, to be more focused, organised driven and happy. Along with most people in the world.... but how do we achieve this without meds?

[sweetiepye]

Hello, I'm Pam and I've been where you are and it is painful. You know no one in this world would talk to you the way you talk about yourself. Please don't even think of yourself in terms of abuse. You obviously are a loving Wife and Mother with very high expectations. Why don't you try changing one thing about you or your life, nothing major. And try making some preparations for those bad days so you don't have much to do .Put a homemade meal in the freezes, let housework go, Just do what is necessary for you and your kids. Let your family know what you are doing so they can help. They will feel like you need them and you will grow their self esteem, works for husbands too. Be kind to yourself. Pam

[Justliz90 in reply to sweetiepye]

Thank you Pam. It’s so frustrating feeling like this. If people were to come to me with this problem I’d know exactly what to say to them. I just can’t take my own advice. Mindset is so strong and I know it’s all it takes is a little walk or a forced smile to help turn your day around but it seems so much easier to just cry about it. Which is so frustrating! The housework if left undone makes me feel worse. It’s all good and suddenly I feel it’s caving in on me, so I need to get organised with the house and decluttered, which I tell myself I’m doing but we’re not there yet. The frozen meals is a good idea, one less thing to stress about. Are the down days something people like us just have to get used to? Because I’m going. To need to become a medical scientist and change the future if that’s the case! 🧐 x

[sweetiepye in reply to Justliz90]

All of these plans and structures are very helpful .but the most important thing they do is to help you feel in control of your own life.

[hypercat54]

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[MAS_Nurse]

Hi justliz90 and welcome to this caring forum. Sweetiepye has made some very helpful suggestions. Have you spoken to your GP or Health Visitor about how you are feeling? They will be able to help you. Would you consider the possible options of counselling / cognitive behavioural therapy / anti depressant medication? Your GP will be able to advise you on the best options for you to enable you to feel better. Also, support is also sometimes available at your local children's centre and Home Start charity helps families who have children under 5 years of age homeStart.org.uk It is positive that you are going to the gym. It isn't easy to find time to do these things when we are caring for young children, so well done for this. It sounds as though you are managing well. Be kind to yourself ans see your GP and explain how you are feeling. Also, if you are feeling distressed, please call----

The Samaritans. They provide a listening ear---

Freephone 116 123 [24 hour helpline] 7 days a week

Do stay on the forum to receive help and support from other members. Take care and best wishes.

[idontno]

I no the feelin kinda feel like my situation is the same, I got everything but still not happy, but I want to be, the tiniest little thing will put me in a mood, I hate cleaning up when I feel down, but then i will realise how every room is a mess, I start getting frustrated and mad that there is mess everywhere so I start cleaning up, I can’t stick nothin out either I’ve started the gym so many times then stopped I just get bored quick. I wouldn’t advise a break try talkin to your husband if u can or write a letter tellin him how u feel,