My very first post on here was a few weeks ago now and it was right after I had left my employment due to the stress and anxiety of a horrible work colleague (and other things), but mainly her!!.
I was frantic, sick with worry at the thought of not having a job for the first time in my life and really felt as low as I could possibly feel. Every day I have been applying for jobs online, registering with agencies etc, doing all the right things, as well as trying to keep fit and healthy. I gave up alcohol quite some time ago now and I can honestly say that if the issues I am going through now were happening say, one year ago, I know I would have been drinking to excess because of my situation. I keep telling myself if I can get through this without drinking then I can get through anything..
I had my first telephone interview last Wednesday and I sailed through it and have been invited to an interview tomorrow morning at 11am. I have been told this interview is going to last for 3 hours. It involves a tour of the building/Firm, a group discussion, a one to one interview and a role play exercise. I am sitting here absolutely "dreading" it and yet a few weeks ago I would have given my right arm for the opportunity!! I don't know how I am going to get through this but I know I have to go!
Why am I feeling so scared when I should be jumping through hoops!!??..
I just want to have a really good cry but I cant even do that because I dont want to turn up tomorrow morning with puffy eyes!! I'm also afraid that I'm going to be the oldest one there!!...(I'm 51)....
Its not even that "good" nervous feeling, I am really dead scared!!! XXX
I wish it was this time tomorrow night!!