Don't know where to start. My life has been nothing but a series of sadness, disappointment and overwhelming loneliness. I have been diagnosed with so many conditions over the years but no one really seems to help. I have no money. No job. No where to turn. My mom doesn't understand at all. I want to go to sleep forever. I think this is the worst I've ever been in my life and I desperately need help. I am so lost and most days can't even get dressed. Thinking good thoughts or talking about it is a thing of the past. I really don't want to go to a state facility. I've been to those and I don't care what anyone says but it is a crime to be poor. I'd rather just disappear. If I was to die tomorrow who would even care?