Beyond hopeless

Don't know where to start. My life has been nothing but a series of sadness, disappointment and overwhelming loneliness. I have been diagnosed with so many conditions over the years but no one really seems to help. I have no money. No job. No where to turn. My mom doesn't understand at all. I want to go to sleep forever. I think this is the worst I've ever been in my life and I desperately need help. I am so lost and most days can't even get dressed. Thinking good thoughts or talking about it is a thing of the past. I really don't want to go to a state facility. I've been to those and I don't care what anyone says but it is a crime to be poor. I'd rather just disappear. If I was to die tomorrow who would even care?

[5310210]

you mention money and it’s a crime to be poor and how your mum don’t listen to you Then why don’t you try to change these things yes it’s hard to pick your self up when you feel low and are at that bottom point of feeling but all the tablets In the world and all the advice and all the I’m gonna or should of done won’t change things only are selfs can do this the more positive thinking and setting little targets and do them and finishing them will help if you don’t work at the moment maybe finding a collage place may help and get you to the points of happiness just geting out helps a lot and speaking to a friendly face make things feel a lot better take it from a Mum your mum does care and sometimes we can only hep so much we want the best for are children and it don’t come with a rule book she would be deverstade if anything happens to you just fight these feeling a bit more they do pass

[Hidden in reply to 5310210]

Just change doesn't work for everyone and if you knew anything about mental health you wouldn't say that like I choose to be like this. EXACTLY WHY I HAVE NEVER TRIED TO GET HELP ONLINE. NO ONE CARES

[5310210 in reply to Hidden]

If I new anything about mental health really I’m a 37 year old Mum of 3 and I’ve struggled from the age of 16 with mental health from what you are saying your at a point in your life that will change and you seem to be taking things the wrong way I’m saying try do little things it does help

[MAS_Nurse in reply to Hidden]

Hello Haggledoe, and welcome to the forum. I needed to remove the first 2 words from your message as offensive language is not allowed in accordance with forum policy. Please continue to post on this caring forum where members listen and do care. It may be a good idea for you to see your doctor to discuss how you are feeling. Have a look at the pinned posts and crisis support helplines on the screen which also give information, support and advice. Keep posting. Best wishes.

[Hidden]

Forget it. I'm sorry. No one seems to understand and no one can help. If I could change things I would. No one should be so unhappy they lay in bed every single night and pray they never wake up.

[5310210 in reply to Hidden]

your rite we shouldn’t have to lay their at night feeling like that and I say we because I’ve been thier and feel like that probley 6 nights out of 7 I came of my meds two weeks ago and I feel a lot better with out them my fight is my children they are the only reason I wake up because I could not leave them behind theirs no one good enough In my life to look after them . Babe you are stronger then you probley think and are in a dark place rite now and you will get through it you it may feel like theirs no way out but their is theirs help out their you are not alone millions of people are feeling the same as you just stay strong and think positive it helps your Mum loves you and even when it may feel like she doesn’t belive me she does and I don’t no her but belive me she does x

[denvajade]

Hi there! Unfortunately a lot of us on this site “ have been there done that” it is terrible to feel such emotional pain! I have struggled all my life, sometimes are better than others. Are you on any medication? About twelve months ago a doctor changed mymeds to one called Cymbalta, it has certainly given me more quality of life, not perfect but I can get on with life. Please talk to a doctor. I understand what you say that no one GETS IT. My daughter and husband think I can just get over it.But I cant, what I can do ismanage my sadness to a better degree and get some pleasure out of life

Please know that there are people who understand but we have to play our part and get help. 😘

[HeroOfChaos]

Sorry to read that you're feeling so miserable, I to felt like you back in 2016 & ended up on a Mental Health Ward for 5 wks, ok things didn't go well when went home as they goofed up on that. There's always hope, don't give up on asking for it & getting whatever tablets you need, my husband & I didn't & in the end we found out that I've got 3 disorders

[marigold22]

Hi, I picked up on your words - "no job, no money". I'm in that situation too and it makes me so miserable and depressed. With no money, I feel like a complete failure in life, I can't go out so I don't have to spend anything at all; I have no pride, and feel of no value at all. I do understand what you're saying. Members on here are all at different stages on their journey. I'm scared what to do next - get frozen onto the settee, scared to move. I'm a mum and I'm sure your mum does care but she doesn't know what to do to help you. Hugs