Hi! I think I am struggling with love addiction and the fear of being abandoned.
Since childhood my father used to tell me that it was clear my worst fear was being lonely, and because of that I was insecure and with low self esteem. I did nothing to fix these problems and my father didn't help me at all. It is true, I can't stand being by myslef, I hate days (especially evenings) in which I am alone and I don't have friends around.
In my relationship I feel pathetic. I am jealous and over controlling. I constantly need my partner to say he loves me and to care for me. I am happy whenever I can help him, and when he appreciates me, his msgs give me euphoria. After a fight or whenever there are issues to discuss, I feel empty and i can not sleep nor eat until I hear from him again.
Since we are in long distance, I decided not to write to him nor call him for some time, cause I feel complitely hollow inside after some days of discussions and uncertainty. Does anybody can give me some advice about how to heal from this and how to become and independent young lady please?