Crying!

[Hope47]

Why can't I stop crying! It seems for no reason at all & I keep trying to analyze myself which just makes me cry more!

Went Christmas shopping today, listened to a band playing and wanted to cry...had to really stop myself! Sat watching a Christmas film...not a sad one but I'm sat crying! Luckily no one around me and I have a sticking cold so the red puffy eyes aren't obvious crying eyes! Eat something I shouldn't, have food issues, go to the bathroom...start crying! Losing control!

Feel miserable...loathe myself...keep crying! Perhaps I just hate myself so much that I'm crying! Dreading going to work tomorrow in case I just start crying!

I have been on anti-depressants but haven't taken them recently as they've been difficult to stomach! Sorry, just babbling...but at least I'm not crying, at the moment!

[darkshadow]

Hello, Hope 47. I know exactly what you are going through. I am the same. I cry a lot nearly every day. Certain music and certain thoughts trigger this. Can I ask you if you feel lonely? Do you feel isolated? Do you get pangs of adrenalin shooting through your stomach? Could it simply be that you are unhappy in your circumstances or life?

[Hope47 in reply to darkshadow]

Thank you for your response. I think I feel lonely in my thoughts, if that makes sense but I'm lucky to be part of a really close family. However I hide a lot of how I feel, thoughts I have and things I do! I have issues with food, abuse laxatives and also SH just to deal with my head, but this 'just crying' is new to me! I can be emotional and soppy, don't get me wrong but this has almost come out of the blue! I like to be in control and just feel like I'm completely losing it!

Thank you again for taking the time to respond to me, hope you've had a good day.

[PNIAuthor60]

I get teary around this time as well, remembering former Christmases and the year I married on December 20 - Christmas movies make me cry - best not to criticise or judge ourselves when we are simply feeling. There are no good or bad feelings - the only "bad" feelings are the ones we don't talk about and instead suppress because those are the ones that make us physically and mentally ill.

You're not really babbling are you - simply expressing feelings and there is no harm or foul in doing so.

I was raised in a home where if I was crying for any reason I was sent to my room, now as an adult I am free to cry whenever and wherever I want. I don't always understand the reason either so I simply accept the feelings.

[Hope47 in reply to PNIAuthor60]

Thank you for your reply, I really appreciate it. I guess I do have 'bad' feelings that I don't talk to my nearest and dearest about but do have a Dr with a good pair of ears, although he probably dreads seeing me!

I'm fortunate in that I've never been told to suppress my feelings, crying was/is allowed but it's the crying for no obvious reason...almost like having the 'baby blues' when hormones take over but without having a baby!

Perhaps it's to do with losing control...I feel like I'm losing control with certain aspects of my life so maybe it's that!

Anyway, thank you again for taking the time to respond to me.