I need help, I’m losing this battle, I’ve started drinking again and making phone calls to the dwp whilst drunk and I can’t remember what I’ve said. I can’t believe what a mess of my life I’ve made I never wanted it to be like this. I can’t do this anymore, I’ve been fighting for so long and I’m tired mentally and physically. Please anyone talk to me, I’m scared and I need to talk
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I assume since you said you started drinking again that you had stopped. Did you go to A.A.? If so, go back. If not, make a meeting today. It's. The best place, in my experience, to go if you have a drinking problem. I used to call old boy friends in the middle of the night after drinking a bottle of scotch. Oh, those were the days.
That's what I needed a sponsor for. My sponsor worked with me as I studied each step in order. And I also learned how to work them by listening at meetings as to how other members lived their lives. Use your literature. Make meetings. Get and use a sponsor. Work the steps with help and direction from others. Take it one day at a time and give it time. You'll get better. IF you do those things.
Hey there! Sorry to hear that you are not coping very well. I have been in the dark place that you seem to be in right now and you CAN come back from it. As they say in AA "One day at a Time" (I didn't realise until I attended AA that this song was sung by Lena Martell because of her problems with alcohol!!). I only attended AA for a short period of time. They say it isn't for everyone and certainly wasn't for me. But I did talk. I talked to people I trusted and visited my GP. I did get stronger, but a little at a time, it didn't happen overnight. The root of the problem right now is the alcohol and if you take that away then things WILL start to look better. You will find a way of coping. Make a plan every night to do something the following day, even if it is only a small thing like going for a walk, going to a café for a coffee.... anything....just so you know that you had made that plan and you had stuck to it.... baby steps.
My drink of choice was wine, and now when I see a bottle of wine and am tempted, I imagine a skull and crossbones on the label because I know for me it is poison. If I go down this road again then I will be unravelling all the good things I have done since leaving the place you seem to be in now.
You need to force yourself to get out of the house. Your own 4 walls can be the lonliest place on earth when you are feeling low and having conversations with yourself and going for walks inside your own head will only make you feel worse. Please make a plan to go out today, just for a short time, don't drink and if you want to speak to someone on the phone, phone the GP or a good friend (or the DWP and ask if you can arrange an appointment to call in and speak to someone face to face - calling anyone these days is a nightmare because of all the Options you have to choose before getting to speak to an actual person and this too adds to frustration.
I am sorry my post is very long, but being a typist I can type as quickly as I can talk/think. (This is not me showing off - but I have been accused on here before for leaving posts that are "too long" so apologies for this.
You have been very kind to me in the past on here and I hope things really do get better for you!!
Sending you lots of love and a much needed hug!! XXXXXXXXXXX
I completely understand and Im here for you to listen and share my guidance and empathy with you because noone deserves to live the way we do. Please feel free to contact me as much as you want and share as deep as you feel comfortable. I do generally work 12ho days and if Im not on here please contact me by text or call at 5732314116