Christmas greetings from Indiana!
Tonight starts the major feelings of loneliness. I see houses sparkling with Christmas lights, Christmas music, people baking in preparation, family members traveling, advertisements for gifts. The list goes on. Don' get me wrong. I love the celebration of Jesus's birth, just not alone.
I'm alone a lot. It's just my husband and myself right now, but with the trouble we're having sometimes I wish he wasn't here. No Christmas celebration this year for us. No tree, no decorations, no treats, no gifts. Our children are also not able to be with us. I don't think my husband will even attend the Christmas Eve service with me. This is the worst Christmas ever. I am so sad. Oh, and my son passed away two years ago. I wish I had a friend. Hence the reason I joined this group. I wish I had some words of encouragement for others, but at the moment, I have none. I do have a dog that has been a wonderful companion to me this past year. He's a Rough Collie and turned one on December 16th. I purchased Laddie because of my loneliness, but it's just another reason my husband is bitter towards me. He didnt want him. Laddie is a truly devoted companion to me and I love him with all my heart.
Yesterday I called about counseling for us. I am praying my husband sees and begins to understand my weaknesses and will begin to be more of a help to me rather than being resentful that I haven't been able to work. I am a Christian and have always believed He has a wonderful plan for each one of us. But, lately I'm beginning to to feel like He has forgotten about me. I don't understand and need some guidance.
Thank you for reading my post, and wish you a Merry Christmas.