I have been in the house for 4 days my boy friend left me at the worse time. .he was my heart my rock and he is blocking my calls. After 3 years yes its hard dealing with a person with depression but he could have talked to me before just walking away. I was just starting to feel better now this. My self esteem is shot and i have to start looking for a new job its been a few months since I left my life is just all over the place at 36 ..and I need a grip I have been in counseling etc for a few months Meds are not working what else is left death ? Life used to be amazing .