My Mind Is A Poisonous Pleasure!

[YourAverageTeen]

I have always been creative, coming up with fun games and silly stories as a child and eventually writing novels. As fun and interesting as my mind is, it also has a much darker side. I have many mental issues, some even appearing in my earliest memories. I've ended up in multiple hospitals over suicidal thoughts and such. I'm getting better, but it's still there. The darkness in my mind will always be there. But, it has actually helped with my writing. I've had times where I've been depressed and anxious and happy, which helps create more diverse characters. I feel as if something moderately positive came from the suffering, so that's nice.

[sweetiepye]

Hello Average Teen, You are very perceptive . I have always appreciated the fact that I can think anything I want. Thoughts are only thoughts and you can exercise your mind toward creativity. We are only limited by ourselves. We seem to have these opposites in life ; good/ bad , happy/ sad and so on. Would we know happy if we didn't know sad? I believe we need to accept a certain amount of the negative, to know it's useful, and that those feelings don't hurt us if we don't act on them.There is a time of day when evening comes that is so sad to me. I don't mind it anymore. It is so familiar to me and there is a certain sweetness to it. You seem to be learning to use these feelings, turning positive to negative. We have to have both which is probably why your characters seem real, add a little confusion and they will be perfect. I think we are here to wonder and question more than we are to know. At least that's how life is for me. I spend a lot of time thinking, I have very few answers. Sigh. Pam

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi, the link between creativity and mental illness has been known and researched. Although you don't have to have a mental illness to be creative ie. there's no causal link, there are correlations between two, and in some cases the creativity is enhanced by the MH condition. You may find these links below interesting as they discuss this topic.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Creat...

nhs.uk/news/2012/10October/...

psychologytoday.com/blog/cr...

It is good that despite your suffering, you are finding positive and creative ways to use your MH conditions to enhance your life.

Thank you for sharing your perspective. Keep posting.

Best wishes

[nedd]

It's funny when I saw your post flag up. I thought there in lies a story.

Yes those thoughts do aid creativity. Especially if you are very imaginative but and this is only my take being similar in disposition.

We are on a tight rope. A balance is hard to keep when very low. Sometimes we feed the fire of creativity throwing things in the blaze. It burns brightly and fuels it's self. And dark images can leap out that can't be contained and consume waking hours.

What fires together wires together.

When I found that out I found it very it was a revelation. It explained so much.

I hesitate. When you feel so positive. But our brains wire together incoming thoughts that we pay attention to. And it is very hard to do a rewiring job. Even with the NHS best help.

So enjoy your writing. But pay attention to those characters that dance on the lighter side.

And good luck.

I loved your title.

And I won't tell you my story line.

Just remember our demons vary, we are all different and this is only my take.

i shall expect to see your name flagged up on the credits of a Hollywood block buster at some point.

And do you paint?