Kinda falling apart

[Hargrovet875]

So I have been dealing with depression and some anxiety since about middle school. Some days I feel great, but most days I'm so down that I literally don't even want to do anything, including the things that used to make me happy. I don't find joy in anything anymore, not even my passions (drumming, singing). I had my heart broken pretty bad recently and really don't know how much longer I can really do this. I feel like a dog that just needs to be put out of its misery, I don't really value myself or anyone around me at this point. I am 20 years old as of yesterday and it was probably the worst day I have had all year, I just sat in my room half the day and cried, I feel like an embarrassment to myself. Just really struggling I guess, anything helps. Thank you.

[sweetiepye]

Hello Hargro, you've been going through this for a long time. Have you ever been diagnosed or received any medical help? Once you know what is going on there is help available . Mind you it takes time and effort on your part, but having been through it myself I can tell you it is well worth it.Eventually you get your life back. My take on broken hearts...better to give than to receive. You are probably feeling things very sharply right now so it may be more difficult than usual to get over a breakup. you may have more in your future, but the good parts in between the bad parts, well make it really good. Use the breakup to write some breakup music, and HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY. Pam

[Satsuma]

Hi there Hargrovet875 .. sweetiepye has already said alot of what I was going to say .. Take some time out just for you and get to know yourself more. Do things that make you feel good .. Writing a song is so therapeutic