So I have been dealing with depression and some anxiety since about middle school. Some days I feel great, but most days I'm so down that I literally don't even want to do anything, including the things that used to make me happy. I don't find joy in anything anymore, not even my passions (drumming, singing). I had my heart broken pretty bad recently and really don't know how much longer I can really do this. I feel like a dog that just needs to be put out of its misery, I don't really value myself or anyone around me at this point. I am 20 years old as of yesterday and it was probably the worst day I have had all year, I just sat in my room half the day and cried, I feel like an embarrassment to myself. Just really struggling I guess, anything helps. Thank you.