Struggling

[Webbl]

Hi everyone been struggling for such along time 3 months ago tried taking my life I stabbed my self in the chest got air lifted to London kept having funny thoughts and before I knew it this happened been ok for awhile but the thoughts are back and don’t know what to do. Sorry so short never written on here before.

[Webbl]

No see my dr who told me it was silly what I done and I have people around me to help but he doesn’t understand and now I’m nearly there again having the thoughts and my wife is struggling to help me because she doesn’t know how to help me 😞

[Dinkz]

Wow! That’s a pretty serious way to try and end your life!! If you are starting to feel that way again, go to your nearest A&E department and tell them that you are struggling this badly. Alternatively, you could locate your nearest mental health hospital and check yourself in for treatment. It sounds like you could really do with getting help in a safe environment where you will have round the clock care and help!!

Finally, If I were you, I would tell that doctor of yours to f**k right off!!!! He obviously isn’t taking you seriously at all and sounds like one of these half wits who thinks everything can be fixed by “Getting a grip” and “counting your blessings” which is utter nonsense!! You need serious help and support ASAP!

Sending you loads of hugs right now! I do hope you manage to get the help and support!

[Faithfull in reply to Dinkz]

Yes I can't stand the saying people say ,get a grip,in time it will be alright ,times a healer no it ain't to a lot of Peale cozy how much is time ,time again I'm sick of waiting for that time.

[Webbl]

Thank you just don’t want to let my wife and children down I try so hard every day to be ok at work and home but no one sees what’s going on in my head I go a bed early and tell my wife I’m just tired but I need to be on my own as everything iratates me. I tried everything havening see therapist but nothing seems to work. Sorry for burdening you all with my problems. I think I should stop now bye 👋

[Dinkz in reply to Webbl]

Hunny, you are NOT burdening anyone with your problems!!

What I can see is a man who is actively seeking help and wanting to get better. That’s a very important step for anyone suffering with mental health problems.

Have you ever been able to sit with a good psychiatrist, tell them exactly what happens, emotional wise, and get a good diagnosis?

If you have and the treatment isn’t working, you should go back to a psychiatrist, let them know their treatment ain’t doing sh*t and that way they can start again and keep working until they find treatment(s) that work for you.

Obviously, you have been suffering with horrendously bad depressive stages. When you’re not struggling with these really bad lows, what is your moods/emotions like?

[Webbl]

Yes I’m on 150m sertraline

[Hidden]

Hi Webbi nice to meet you and welcome to the site. I am sorry to hear about your issues. Please don't feel like you are a burden on here because you certainly aren't. We all need to take sometimes as well as give and that's fine. We are all here for you.

I definitely think you need to seek counselling - if nothing else it will give you someone else to talk to apart from us who understands and this will help. Please don't have the attitude though that this won't or doesn't work as the right type of counselling will help you. There are lots of different types so you might need to try a few before finding one right for you.

Counselling isn't an easy option or a short term one. It can be very painful as you are bringing up feelings and emotions you have suppressed over many years. Remember too it took years to feel like this so it will take time to help you.

The other thing is I think you are trying too hard to be 'normal' in front of your wife. She wants to help you so let her but tell her how she can as she won't automatically know. The more you talk with her the more you will feel a release of your feelings.

Meanwhile stay with us and keep talking and we will do our best to help and support you.

Lil x

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Webbi and welcome to the forum. I am sorry for your experience a few months ago. Have you received any support since then? If you are having difficulty with expressing how you are feeling, it often helps to write this down. As SweetNSour suggested, it may be better to try and see a different doctor if you can. Could your wife go with you for support? There is help and support available. Tell your wife how you are feeling as this will help. If you are feeling this way, please go to your nearest A/E department or dial 999 for an ambulance. Have a look at the pinned posts to the right of the screen [Crisis support helplines]. Also, please stay on the forum where you can receive support from other members. Best wishes.

[Webbl]

I’m getting worse things going on in my head getting paranoid about everything and everyone don’t want to be here any more I think I’m better off out of all this I’m ruining everybody’s life because of the way I am I should go and let them be happy I pretend I’m happy but inside I want to go can’t sleep keep thinking same thing over over again like a video of it keeps playing