I am 3 weeks in to a programme of learning how to manage the symptoms of BPD; something that was a real problem for me until around 25 yrs ago when I sort of grew out of it (I'm fast approaching my 60's now).
I was happy to undertake the programme, in the hope that I could gain insight and a way to manage crisis, and a recovery plan, what have I to lose?
Today, I've had to cancel my appointment as my hubby is unwell so can't take me, and I am shocked at how relieved I feel. I like my CPN practitioner, she's a bit dotty but very sweet, but if the truth be known, I couldn't even begin to tell you what the last 3 sessions have been about.
None of it feels relevant, and in any case our time seems to to be spent on her reading her endless bits of paper but not relating it to me, then she says that for my homework I need to complete the sheet, which I do with empty words, and no relationship to my thoughts or feelings.
Last year I undertook an 8 wk initial intervention course, the forerunner for this set of 8 sessions and I found it to be challenging, interesting and thought provoking so it's not a case of being opposed to working with the mh services.
I'm really not sure where to go now. Do I tell the CPN practitioner how I'm feeling? How could I go about giving some value to the sessions? Do I ask to speak to someone else?
I'm very confused.......