Struggling again

[digginsa]

So hit a dark spot and my previous post will explain that, thought I was making progress trying to keep on going and hoping time will help, but today driving to work the thoughts of not being good enough, also being dumped , being to nice has got me no where in life except heartbroken and depressed, so ashamed to say the thoughts of just ending it all flood back in and then my head starts to think about how it would be easier to do that than carry on, almost a sense of relief hits me thinking planet earth wouldn't miss me I just don't know what to do anymore 😪

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello again Digginsa, that is excellent that you were making progress, so look at this as just a blip. What happened that made you struggle again? Have you seen your health professional recently, did you have medication that you stopped/cut down? I realise sometimes it is very hard to have black days, but look at what happened on the rainbow positive days. Please talk to someone that you trust about how you are feeling. You are important and yes someone would miss you. You can call the Samaritans or the Crisis support helpline UK. Take care.

(The number for the Crisis is in the 'Pinned Posts' on the right of your screen and the Samaritans number is 24 hrs a day - Tel: 116 123.

[digginsa in reply to MAS_Nurse]

I don't know why I am struggling again the loneliness is really getting to me, yes I have my son but when he goes to bed or weekends I struggle, have not managed to get to see a healthcare professional and just feel so isolated and scared 😪

[Petersonaj3 in reply to digginsa]

All I can say you're not alone , I'm feeling exactly the same right here , if you feel you need too chat either chat on here got just message me ..... no one has the answer but there's techniques that help , yet too try them myself , I should practice what I preach but I'm struggling too

[Sarah1111111 Ambassador in reply to digginsa]

loneliness can make us all feel low, especially after having ended a relationship. You mention weekends? are there any ways that you can meet others at the weekends so that you can be busy and take your mind off your thoughts? I don't know if you have any friends or family you could go and visit, or any groups loally you could try and get involved with. If you have your son (and he is the right age) even going to park with him can help as there will be other parents you could talk to as they play. It can be hard being a parent as it means you spend more time with your son and have less time to talk with adults and leaves you more time to think when they are in bed. Are there any hobbies/ activities you could do at home in the evening to take your mind off feeling alone?

[digginsa in reply to Sarah1111111]

My son is 15 so the days of taking him to the park are long gone unfortunately, working full time and being a single dad has killed any hobbies I get home and just want to sleep, and since the last relationship collapse I am in bed by 8 at night, just feel like is this it now, my son leaves school next year so I worry it will be even worse 😪

[marigold22]

Find male mates to do things with, think what interests you outside of work and start doing it, think of things you can do with your teenage son (maybe even for a night away togther) and plan it and do it. You did have the largest part of your son's life so far with his mother. I've been counselling a couple of guys who have lost contact with their 2 year old and 5 year old. Please read my Profile. You have a house, a car, a job, money presumably.

[marigold22 in reply to marigold22]

Sorry to sound harsh... I don't like self pity. If this suicidal thing continues it means you are physically ill.