So upon more reflection, which i seem to be doing alot as of late, im connecting more of my issues to insecurity. So this is sort of a long story. Sooo around 7th grade, i was 12, i started gaining weight. Its was strange because none of my normal habits changed. Now i assume its was just because i was a growing kid. I started slouching in attempt to hide it, which now has left my spine deformed. Even though i was never insulted all that much for it i become very sensitive about it, my weight that is. I remember being in complete denial about it. I started growing other insecurities, but im not going to talk about those. I geuss it wasnt that long if a story 😂 Anyways, this is an insecurity i still have today. My biggest insucurity. I know that its irrational. But i dont know what to do. I let my insecurities control me, hold me back. Im to afraid to do anything outside my routine. I want to change, i want to be normal. Its hard, and im not sure how to change. There was more i was going to say but i forgot it lol.