I don't know what's wrong with me...

[supermood]

I have anxiety, and because of it I don't leave the house much. For the past 5 or so years I've been having huge mood swings - some days I can feel on top of the world, like nothing can stop me, with all the confidence in the world; other days I strongly consider suicide and think about how bad my life is. This has happened a lot and I have bad mental breakdowns sometimes where I don't even know what I'm going to do next. I just completely lose myself. I've hit people before during it without even realising what I was doing until after. I don't know what's wrong with me!!

[LadyCaddy]

Hello. I feel that way minus the suicidal thoughts.. I can literally sleep all day ( mind you I can't seem to fall asleep until 5am) then I nearly panic BECAUSE the day had gone by and I may have evening plans. When it comes close to the time to go or even get ready to go, I find excuses, make excuses, and jump back in bed. I'm going thru peri menopause so I'm sooooo self conscious of my new " body odors" and excessive sweating that I NEVER EVER in my 45 years experienced. So I know I'm becoming anti social, my friends are frustrated because I constantly cancel enthusiastically made plans, I don't know how to break outta my bubble and feel confident enough to face life again on life's terms.

[Liz-WideOpenSpaces]

Hi. Good to hear from you. Sorry that you're not feeling good. Have you been to see a Doctor? Or do you have anyone you can talk to? It sounds like you could do with some help. Hopefully you can find out more about why you are feeling like you do and then look to getting yourself well. You don't need to go through this all alone. Wishing you well.

[supermood in reply to Liz-WideOpenSpaces]

Thank you. I'm hoping to go to the doctors, but my anxiety stops me a lot of the time. Because of my social anxiety I let my mum explain my problems to my doctor, and I don't think I could be honest with her about my suicide thoughts.

[Liz-WideOpenSpaces in reply to supermood]

I hope you get to the Drs - what have you got to loose? Perhaps if your Mum goes with you you can ask her to leave you for a moment to talk to the Dr? Could you write down how you are feeling and give this to the Doctor? Good luck.

[Kainan]

Hi. Have you thought about taking medication? It can help you better manage your emotions and urges so that they don't become so overwhelming

[SomeMuthaFunky]

I'm not a Doctor or trained in any way but if I had to make a guess I'd say you are bipolar but the good news is, if this is your problem, that it can be managed. Your first step is to go and see your Doctor and explain all of this. Help is available.

[Queensavage1999]

Hi I have a similar problem

I think it’s anxiety or depression I really don’t know

But for the past week to 2weeks I am not able to sleep at night and I am able to sleep during the day for me it feels like I am afraid that I won’t wake up in time or I’m scared that the sun doesn’t come up ..stupid I know

When I am able to sleep I could sleep for days

I’m never hungry in the morning or at night but I’m starving in the afternoon

I soon or later fall into a deep pit or sadness or sometimes not emotion at all

I think suicidal thought sometimes I tell myself that I should think happy but in that pit I don’t know what happiness looks like