I havent posted before... I have a problem with crying.
it really has messed up my life, im so scared to talk to anyone for fear of tears.
i can think clearly but the tears dont obey me, they just spurt out and betray my emotions. once i start i have a hard time stopping. There are particular trigger words that do it, I find. Like right now, typing this, i have tears. why? i wish they would just stop. If i think about frustration or embarrasment, or especially talk about it, i tear up. Of course that makes it more embarrassing. Ive tried various medications for depression and nothing stopped the tears, some made them worse. I just try to avoid talking to everybody.
its really really frustrating.
anyhow... ive been here lurking for awhile, not sure why but i felt like introducing myself now.
take care all!