Why do I want to not be here :'(

[leewilling]

I wish I could be happy in myself every time I go bed I cry and I'm always there for others and all I get back is beign used I really don't think I can be happy no mater how hard I try I want to cut and cry and it's effecting me in everyday life 😢

[Hidden]

Hello you sound like a caring person and being there for others is something you should be kind to yourself about, I am sure they appreciate you and perhaps don't always think of showing this. It can be hard when you are looking for the same. Could you try talking to them and say how low you are feeling you deserve to be happy we all do. All these illnesses are draining and tiring there are some lovely people on this site, I have only just joined but reading the posts from fellow sufferers really does help. Hold tight and remember people do care and are here just keep writing and I do hope things will get better 😉

[lin62-65ze]

I am so sorry that you feel this way, however friendship is a two way thing and it does appear that your friends are unaware of how you are. Do you tell them about your depression? Are you on medication? You need support and someone to offload your problems onto. Do you have close family members who you can talk to? We do live in a society that is all about me, me, me. However as Newto stated there are those here like myself who want to help. I have a wonderful friend who has helped me such a lot recently, she went out of her way practically and in person to help when my son got into a mess. She moved his animals to a safe place, she listened to me and took me out etc. You need positive friends who help and care for you. Please remember we are all here for you, contact me anytime happy to help 😊😊

[leewilling]

Thank you

[leewilling]

Not at all because I believe I can get through with my heart even if my mind is messed up

[jrcnpg]

I had an episode of almost devout anxiety when I was at school then a further episode of anxiety going through the sixth form A-level college and then the same again at University. Do you cry each night? When you say that you go to bed in a weeping state, has that now become something of a habit? Are there any clues as to why you are doing what you say you are doing? When you say that you are there for others despite your mental health issues and get no positive feedback from whom you probably want some happiness and that is affecting (you spelt the word incorrectly!)? The reason for all these questions is to establish some form of information regarding your life, cradle to the grave method. Medication, too, is there to take advantage of but take care with it. Anxiety is a terrible thing to have because it is invisible no matter what. Have you not been to see your GP? What you really need is to be given an appointment to see your GP then ask he/she for a referral to therapy at the local mental health venue. I hope that you do get the help that you quite clearly need.

John