Hi I have suffered from anxiety since my 1st panic attack aged 11. Im 41 now and the last 2 weeks I been having weird thoughts , I question everything that I hear and see incase I'm going mad. I been googling and saw something on schizophrenia and I been panicking about it ever since. I feel weird 24/7 I'm trying so hard to relax. As soon as I lay in bed and close my eyes, I see images and have the most horrible brain chatter , my girlfriend says she gets this but she don't panic atall. I can't sleep. I feel like I'm going insane. I've suffered anxiety and I'm sure depersonalisation as a few years back I was questioning existence. I'm in a rut. I'm having suicidel thoughts. But not that I will. It just scares me. Every thing I read on google I obsess over it. I'm constantly thinking. I just can't shut off. My stress levels are so hi.
I keep thinking I'm getting phychois or schizophrenia or bipolar. I've been to doctor and he said I just need to calm down. He wouldt give diazepam as I asked for them so I could just chill for a bit. Ive been on venalafine for 10 years. Im on a low dose 37.5 ( I've tried many a time swapping it but it's a knightmare drug to get off) I just want to feel normal and live my life. I've lost interest in most things lately. It's really doing my head in. Any advice would be really appropriate. Sorry for rambling.