I've recently lost my sister on the 28th December only 28 years old she was.
She had leukemia and was diagnosed end of Sept 2018. I rushed her to hospital about 45 mins away from home, I also struggle to drive this distance normally but knew she needed to get to hospital. I was panicking the while time by the time we got to the hospital my panic attack was in full swing.
I got her to where she needed to be as fast as I could and I had to leave my panic attack lasted 5 hours or so, I broke down half way home so my partner came to pick me up. I got home and it wasn't nudging I ended up calling an ambulance they came an hour later done an ecg and oxygen levels and everything looked fine so I came back in the house, I eventually got to sleep but broken sleep all night for about 5 hours I woke up with panic so I took myself to hospital.
They done the tests ECG x ray bloods, came back fine.
Since this I have ended back up in a n e about 3/4 times with panic attacks.
Anxiety affects me daily. Panic attacks would say 1/2 maybe 3 tops a month.
Mainly before my period. I'm starting to keep a diary to see if my hormones are playing a part in this.
I have agoraphobia a little too which is new to me my home is sort of my safe zonebut this is where the panic attacks happen.
My mood has also lowered because the anxiety has stopped me from doing things i enjoyed.
I was given citalopram just before my sister died and valium to help with side effects as I've had this drug before 9 year ago I caused heightened anxiety really bad but kicked in 13 weeks later and I was fine with them for 2 year then decided I no longer needed them and weaned off.
As my sister passed the doc said it wasn't a great time to start them as I was feeling super anxious going to the hospital to be with her. Which I managed but checked my heart rate the whole time I was there. I was proud I stayed at the hospital all day this was tough for me. I wasn't there when she passed I came home. After she passed the days were like I was floating around numb I could not stop thinking of her and it just didn't feel real. The doc did recommend tak8ng the valium as needed but this doesn't help I've a tablet phobia.
Anyway since she went into hospital in Sept my anxiety and panic attacks have worsened, I'm normally in control of them and have coping strategies. But I'm trying to find myself again.
Any ideas what I can do to try lift this? I've started walking 30 mins outside but close to home. But with everything that's gone on with my sister and feeling so exhausted I've been doing 20 mins due to been tired.