I have felt so low for the past week I have virtually stopped living. I am breathing, going to the toilet, remembering to drink water and from time to time I go into the kitchen and force myself to eat something. A bowl of cereal, a yoghurt. I sleep 12 hours a night (I'm o Zolpidem) then when I wake I try and cling onto sleep for as long as I can. I have to get up to feed my little cat Millie.
This is not living, I'm barely existing. My GP says hypothyroidism will give me bad mood spikes. The people on the thyroid support site tell me it takes a long time to get your thyroid levels up with the medication. My CPN is concerned because I am looking at various sites on the internet which are unhealthy.
I can't persuade myself to re engage with life again. I feel like all my friends and family have had enough of me.
I can't get out of bed I've spent 3 days this week not washing.
Antidepressants don't seem to work. Thyroid mess did for a while but now there army and I know I need an increase but the gps are very wary to take my levels up to quickly, so I continue on trying to stay alive. Even though I know I don't want to.