Sorry, this may be a long one but I figured this is my best shot at getting some help...
I've experienced a lot of life changes over the last few months. I moved away from home where I started university, then developed a series of ongoing health issues, was struggling a lot academically, financially and socially due to me being a natural introvert suddenly in a highly extroverted social environment. I felt uncomfortable in my skin and lack confidence, so I constantly felt like I wanted to be alone where I wasn't being judged more than I judge myself. Then family issues escalated. All of these problems let to me having frequent panic attacks, constantly in a low mood, sleeping all the time and avoiding social contact where possible. I developed an anger that would explode wherever I felt uncomfortable, particularly in nightclubs (a regular occurrence as a uni student), which led to my friends feeling uncomfortable around me and concerned due to my anger and sadness often ruining what should have been fun experiences. All this combined, I decided to leave university as I was scared for my mental wellbeing. So, I moved back home. Unemployment, no career prospects and no experience, financially unstable, my friends still lived in another city and my family where treading on eggshells just to make sure they wouldn't say the wrong thing to make me break down further, as well as being further introverted and socially uncomfortable to the point where I no longer wanted to see anyone or leave the house. Fast forward to now - in the month that I've been living back at home I've connected a lot with spiritual healing techniques like meditation, natural healing remedies like homeopathy and aromatherapy to boost my mood. But I'll still find myself trapped in frequent feelings of worthlessness, a failure to my family and an unclear future - as well as the continuing health problems that have no apparent means to an end. I feel numb. I've cut off any romantic prospects as I've completely lost interest in connecting with society, developed a need to perfect the few things I have control of and can no longer stand to hear unnecessary noise along with the thoughts in my head. People talk too much and it exhausts me listening to meaningless conversations. I don't feel suicidal but I'm really struggling to see any way out of this dark period of my life. I know this post doesn't even begin to explain everything in my head, hence why it probably seems like I'm overthinking everything but I'm honestly exhausted from listening to the negativity in my head.
If anyone can relate and let me know how they have pulled through any dark times in their life, all advice will be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
(Again, sorry for the long post. This is my introductory post)