Hi All, I have suffered very mild depression & anxiety over the past 5-6 years. This was very on & off and only ever a problem on one or two occasions. However on May 25th 2016 I came home form work to find my mother dead, very sudden, no life threatening illnesses and no signs of any accident happening which could have caused her death. She was 54 and although she had various problems which came as she aged (Arthritis, menopause symptoms etc) she was fairly healthy. Her Post mortum came back as 'Natural Causes' even after they took samples of her organs to test. So no real explanation. It's been almost 9 months now and things are becoming extremely difficult for me. I have had bereavement counselling in the first couple of months as I needed to try and get over the shock so that i could begin to grieve. Since then i have tried to cope on my own with exercise and good eating. Unfortunately this is not working for me anymore. My mood swings are horrific. I cannot stand to be around people other then a few close friends and my partner. My partner does get the brunt of my moods because i feel most comfortable with him and i struggle with confrontation with other people. The main problem is how he is trying to deal with me. In the beginning he was super supportive and understanding but seems as time has gone on he is becoming more and more frustrated with the way i am acting. He is a very social, outgoing person. He cannot understand that I cant face to even go out some days and he thinks i am just tired because i'm tired, he doesn't understand the effects depression and anxiety has on a person. I have told him to read about it or talk about it with someone else and i have tried time and time again to explain what it feels like for me but he just does not understand. It is causing so many major problems for us. He thinks i am just being awkward or doing things on purpose even though i do explain to him that i'm not. I know he loves me, if there's one thing i know it's that but I think we are both at our wits end with this. I don't know what more i can do which in the end just adds more fuel to my depressive fire! Any advice would be highly appreciated.
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