hi i am new on here,
i am currently suffering from sad, i have had it many years since i was 19, when i lost my grandma, in 2010 i had a break down and was put on citalopram and propranolol, over the years i coped, and now reduced for over 12months to 10mg of antidepressant, but has December approached my mood has change to despair, sad and tired, cant get up, today its been dull here, in Radcliffe England, i could not face going out, i an going to try to go on my treadmill tonight for the feel good factor.
I think Christmas makes me feel worse, has my parents wish to spend their Christmas in the lakes rather than with me, even though i am married with no children, so not totally alone, but Christmas feels very empty and scary, with the long nights, hardly any daylight in the day,
I also lost my lovely granddad, 2012, on New years eve, so that contributes has well, to my depressive feelings.
I tend to improve has January comes in and i see a glimmer of hope, at the moment every thing feels such hard work.