Mom's back on her manipulations and abusive behaviour. I feel bad i was scared of the job, i want to rush back to university city asap

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Mom's back on her manipulations and abusive behaviour. I feel bad i was scared of the job, i want to rush back to university city asap. And i'm going on wednesday, i don't know If i'm gonna make it till wednesday. She's drinking again, saying things in wiping voice and complaining and saying "whyyyyy" and talking about dad and grandparents and she got a credit just to win a flat because "grandparents aren't giving us the apartment"and wrote it in my name and i'm losing it. She doesn't accept my boudaries. Don't tell me how terrible this si because i'm going to panic. And don't tell me she needs help because hse doesn't listen. I just feel bad i was anxious about going back when i want to escape asap. I am close to losing it, If she tells me 1 Word i'm gonna start screaming and crying. Damn keyboard ahhhhhhh

Update : But i miss my sister and rabbit and worry about her

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peebles say that because thy feel for u...wish they coul d move u to good fam ande siaut5ion is all...they respec5 what ur going 5hrouth

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Thanks, i wish it too 😭. Now sis is frustrated and i can't comfort her because my anxiety is insane

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ok ...ur feel her frustra5ion u care....cant fix it or pro5ect5 her..but at least u want to....easy ror me to say...sorry ur sis and u togint 5houth 5his...sorry my typing....hand problems....no disrespect meant.......

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sure it is...like a good marine in a war zone...normally they have others to watch each others backs...cant say u have much more than ur wits and guts and ....anyone would be super anxiiteyous tense scared worried....whatever...just words.....we get eachother....yes we all really......truthully...want u ...out of there.....yesteray ....so do u raionally....ur not insane the situa5ion is....genuinely sorry bout ur siter and all u said.....genuinel genuinely genuinely.....wish i could send i the A team of women to hold and protct u...lsten better and know what o say and do.....i doooo hear u ...feel for u........have to fig what to say...but sense u get ...i...we doooo get u in a nightmare coping. ....taking a pause til fig what to say or do......we do feel for u...don liek u beingt there all alone.....heavenl angel women and men ready to listen ......say it better...

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It's a nightmare rn. I can't even proceed, what comes to helping her n i can't calm

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sooooo get it i do i do i doo...id want to scream too...no disrespect ever.....menant ....cant stand poss insuting u...not meant that5 way

ever

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Yeah, i want to scream too

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alone cut off no company no comfort or human interaction meaning a friendly face tells us were ok and likable.....v isolation ..IS.....v hard and slow inner deeper dpressionand no stimulation.......rough family rough situation...gee..why would a ;person feel aweful and stressed alone alone alone and want to scream.....why wouldnt i feel that way

oh ya im so thankful evertin is hard nothitg simple or easy or kind ....does that sound right? not to this humpty dumpty...

do u have music or comedy show on internet? not trying to be insulting at all.....ah brig im drowwning here man and ur asking if i have terry fator....thanks man.....

how about then billin group long huuuuuuuugs from all yur ten thousand biiion friends here.....?? big bird really sends his hello and oscar and thump;er and owl and Kermit the frog

eveeyon one feels for u here trst me on that.....everyone knows ur going throgh sh*****ty times......so alone Birg why is the world so heard om now why cant it sgo right or someon nt b so mean and nagry?? hear ya heary hear ya.....everyone hear...sending their grupo love and karma

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Thanks Brig and all. I'm just trying to watch funny videos on YouTube

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buuuuuuuu rilllant......!!!!!! grreeat idea......this isnt***** patronization.....this is

how

we

talk

where im from

hey....have to intro u to horse trail ridin when ya get done......ull love it......horses are laid back and a gas..

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I want to see one in reality. Saw in the zoo, they're amazing

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hows 55 years of horses....bet i can fnd one juiiiice right for ya....

we gonna have a gas man......cant get anyone else to go along....they all think i wouldnt want to go with a beginner.....lol....can u believe that?? i have to go alone........they might ahhhhh ........i couldnt be more laid badk and i can5 get anyone to go on a stupid trail ride........can u blieve that stuff??

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Hmm

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only rationale or sane in insane situation.....

if ur were totally composed and peaceul ...then id be concerned....

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Lol yes

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its rainint hard here- in my shed .....time to whip out th magic campfire and make magic popcorn and smores....

do u burn ur marshmellows or how do u like them?

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always wanted to be pilot ror real...make a modk simulat5o nane practice in my mind....fun huh

who needs grass?

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Sounds magical. I have never burned marshmalows, i want to

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utube treasu ure hunt!!!!!! gooo ror it

hmm wonder how many subtypes of marshmellows ther are...

hmm....

coals v flame v lttle stick with coals (native am fire...only white men bild big fires....lol......they right of course........l......o.....l)

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I just need to escape to the forest, no roommates, no family, and to Burn marshmalows

[SoporRose]

What does this mean?:

'she got a credit just to win a flat because "grandparents aren't giving us the apartment"and wrote it in my name'

It sounds as if your mom is messing with your credit score. If so, may I suggest you report the "error" to your bank a d get it erased? Maybe after you get back to your safe place. At this point, I think it sounds wise to cut your trip short and not wait for Wednesday.

Ruth

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She used her own money but she's messing forcing me to force grandparents to give me the apartment so dad and the baby don't get it and we to end up home less. But 1st i can't force them, 2nd this is really painful for me, to listen how grandparents might kick us out to prefer dad and the baby. I'm feeling sentimental leaving but this is what i have to do right?