My boyfriend broke up with me and I'm severely depressed and have anxiety to begin with, my mom passed away a while ago and my dads an alcoholic. I can't cope without my boyfriend and I keep having nightmares of him. I want him back so much but he blocked me on everything, I have no friends no family and I'm suicidal now. I'm a mess my stomach is sick I want him back so much but he is gone forever and I'll never hear or see him again. I'm not overweight but I feel like I need to get a hot body in order to ever find someone in this society to be with me. Please help.