Near breaking point

[daisy_chain8]

Hi to all. I'm just feeling like I'm at breaking point right now and i find it so hard to open up to my psychiatrist. I have a 2yr old and everything feels its getting on top of me. I suffer with bipolar and severe ocds and everything else. Im confused don't know what to do . help me please?

[Ohitzidris]

You should really open up to your psychiatrist.. Keeping your feelings to yourself at this point isn't the smartest idea (It could probably be the reason why you're starting to reach your breaking point). Chill out, take some deep breaths and ready yourself to spill out everything that you're keeping to yourself. You can also say it here too since everything is anonymous anyway. Why are you finding it hard to open up to your psychiatrist?

[Robbie138]

Oh daisy_chain. I'm so sorry to hear this, do you have any support at home or around you ? I know what you are saying about opening up, frightened your saying to much because of your two yr old. If you are feeling really anxious try and get out of the situation your in, or if it's at night when little one is bedded, come on here and have a chat, someone is bound to be around. Do you take medication if so how long have you been on it, is it still helping maybe you should pay Dr a visit. Remember this site is open 24/7 so no need to feel alone.

Wishing you well,take care. You know where we are xxx

[daisy_chain8 in reply to Robbie138]

Yes, exactly that. I'm terrified they will take my child from me. I can't cope with anything , it's all getting on top of me. I take fluoxetine 60mg a day but as of yet my bipolar remains un stabilised as i was put on depakote and had quite dangerous side effects so i was weaned off that. Struggling with basic things like cooking, cleaning , taking care of myself , im getting to the stage where i don't want to go out the front door as it seems terrifying. I suffer with social phobia severely so i just get into a major panic or anxiety attack. I feel everything down to the ground i walk on is contaminated. I can barely enter my own kitchen. Im intimidated by my psychiatrist and he also made things worse by inviting another doctor into one of our sessions which was so overwhelming i felt tightness in my chest and all i could do was break down crying during the session . it was petrifying. Feel my head will explode soon

[Robbie138 in reply to daisy_chain8]

Maybe you should go back to your GP and tell them your struggling with things, as for your psychiatrist if you don't feel comfortable it will be hard to get anywhere. As long as they see your little one is being cared for it should be ok . Have you seen the site called netmums I'm sure it would maybe benefit you. Don't worry to much about house just look after you and little one.

[Satsuma]

Best to open up to your psychiatrist as then he can give u the proper treatment or atleast point you in the right direction for help

[Betty30]

Dear Daisy, I am so sorry you are having a rough time... I have a suggestion: TELL the psychiatrist about how you feel..OK? The one thing I know is very important is to be totally upfront and painfully HONEST with all that you tell him or her. Honestly, Daisy, the therapists are not there to judge you... sometimes I think we might feel that we are 'supposed to say the right things'... I think a good beginning would be to tell him you are having a hard time opening up... I hope this helps! Please take good care.

[daisy_chain8 in reply to Betty30]

Firstly, thank you so much for your response, im so grateful and second of all I am just absolutely terrified that if I open up fully and tell doctors, psychiatrist how i am NOT coping, they will take my child away from me. She's all I've got. I have my friend who's my next door neighbour but i don't have family around me because they don't understand me or what im going through and i feel they would prefer it if i was dead so I've totally isolated myself and don't speak to anyone. It's becoming almost too much to bear.

[Lizbett]

Hello. I'm very sorry to read how you're currently feeling. But there is help.

I don't know why you find it difficult to open up to your psychiatrist. Is it a personality mismatch or something else. If you're uncomfortable the psychiatrist, are you able to get another one? Alternatively, write down everything that has been going on and how you're feeling. Give it to the psychiatrist to read.

Now, do you have a partner, family etc who can give you support and help with looking after your child? You sound overwhelmed so that says to me you NEED both time out for yourself AND support. ASK for the help that you feel you need.

Blessings x