Can't deal with this anymore

[Westie-love]

I have been kicked right back down again today, I want to get out of this vicious circle, I have been at the crisis centre today for a one to one, but don't really feel any better, since coming out, I really don't know how much more I can take, it would appear that the only way to get help is to hurt yourself, I have no one to talk to about it all, as usual with depression people start avoiding you, which we all know is the worst thing, for us, I am going to go back to the doctor, if I can get an appointment, to see if there is anything else he can do, I am at a stage where I would be happy to be admitted to hospital, at least then I would get help.

[Goldfish_]

I'm not sure I would recommend hospital. It's a humiliating experience where you are constantly under suspicion, not trusted and living with some very disturbed people.

Have you ever visited anyone who is an inpatient?

What do you think inpatient treatment could give you that is not possible as an outpatient?

Unless you go into the Priory privately and I'm sure they'll be happy to take payment from you. Probably £1000 per night

[Westie-love]

If I could go private I would but could not afford it, I have been in there for assessment , so I have seen how bad it could be, but I am scared of my own feelings , I have been to see my GP this morning and he is referring me back for urgent counselling, but those wheels turn very slowly, even when you are put through as urgent, which is no good when you are in a crisis period, yes I am lucky in that we have a crisis centre, but that can be good or bad depending on who is on that day, I need to sort myself out as soon as possible as I am the main carer for my daughter, and have to be able to take her to hospital appointments. This is a huge pressure on me as she needs me to be there for her.

[Goldfish_ in reply to Westie-love]

As you rightly say, you need to sort it out yourself as I suspect counselling or even admission may be a disappointment.

Even if you are suicidal, admission has not been shown to save lives overall, only during the time of observation while admitted, but then the numbers increase immediately after discharge