Hi. I am not sure how to start. I suppose it started when I was just 19. I have never told anyone this so it's very hard to even write.
If you are easily offended then perhaps you should stop reading. When I was 19 I slipped a disc in my back and trapped the sciatic nerve and the nerve that is responsible for sexual sensation. The nerve has never healed.
When I am intimate with my partner of 17 years I feel nothing. She does not know the truth. I have had to take it every time.
I feel like less than man. I am now 41 and lived with this for so long I am a so down and depressed all the time. It has ruined every aspect of my life. I take satisfaction in literally nothing I do. I have become completely numb. I do not enjoy being a partner or a Dad at all.
My kids are the only reason I have not ended my complete misery and agony of life. It's absolute torture.
It's getting harder everyday. I am in tears writing this. What did I do wrong to deserve this? It's been 22 years of hell. Surely my death would be a mercy killing??
Can anyone help me? Is it hopeless? Thanks for reading and sorry if I upset or offended you. It was not my intention. I just needed to get this of my chest.
Thanks
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