I feel I haven't been on here much lately

[Angelmarrow141]

Sorry I haven't been on here much lately - hope everyone is doing ok, it's not for the want of trying but life has got in the way, there is a lot to say just that can't always say how I feel

I am reading the posts a lot to catch up on

[Olderal]

Hello Angelmarrow , good to hear from you again. Don't worry if you don't catch up on all the posts as there are n't enough hours.

Olderal

[Angelmarrow141 in reply to Olderal]

Thanks Olderal

[LoriMS61]

Hi, welcome back. How did you get on with your last session seeing your therapist? Has life got in the way in a good way?

Lori

[Angelmarrow141 in reply to LoriMS61]

Hi Lori

Lovely to hear from you, I am still at counselling, I have about 4 sessions left, I thought I didn't had any. I don't feel the same for my counsellor as much but I am dreading my last session as it will conclude. I like him as he is firm and upfront, he said I wasn't making any progress and he said he had no vested interest in me other than my safety, now I know where I stand. I feel up and down I am writing a letter to my husband about leaving him and giving it my counsellor tomorrow to read, I don't think I will give it my husband but it is an exercise to see if this is what I want. I have left my job as I am on now 40mg Citalopram and having counselling, I am struggling to cope, there are days when I wonder how I got through the day, I am job hunting but the bullying I had at work has affected me a lot, I think that I am getting there. Non of my family know my situation with husband or work so I am lying to them as I don't want them knowing, I eventually will have to own up. I am seeing a friend from my old job tomorrow so they will tell me what's been going on at work, they are on my side I think, he is a male work colleague, I am meeting him because all my other work friends disowned me, he doesn't shout at me make me feel low, he is just normal xx

[LoriMS61 in reply to Angelmarrow141]

Hi,

I'm jealous that you are still being seen by your counsellor, I miss mine so much. She let me record a Mindfullness exercise on my iPad though, so I can listen to that when I need to. That must have been hard being told you weren't making any progress?

I have a vested interest in your happiness and your safety. How do you feel about writing the letter? I find that type of thing very cathartic. I feel like I don't know enough about your relationship with your husband; I don't know whether that is because I haven't read the right comments or you haven't opened up about it yet. You don't have to, I'm just glad you have someone to talk to.

I'm going to reply to the rest of your post, but I have to run now because I have a session with my personal trainer booked. I'm not in the right headspace at the moment and I'm hoping she'll knock some sense into me.

Lori

[Angelmarrow141]

Enjoy your run, I feel well different writing it, it's good therapy writing it as it gets it out of my head into paper, hard as well as its the truth I'm telling him. The counsellor is ok he doesn't suffer fools gladly though