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[Robbie69]

...I suffer from depression , I lost my son 3 years ago , thought I was coping with it but i wasn't , I would sit for hours just staring into space not talking to anyone not interested in talking to anyone ..

After about a year I admitted to myself that I needed help , made an appointment to see my local doctor , he prescribed antidepressants 50mg 3 months later went back again he put me on 100 mg this seemed to help a lot with my moods and my crying now 2 and half years later I feel like i am going backwards , I am back to my crying in the shower or anywhere I am alone , I miss my son so bad it just hurts all the time he is in my head 24/7 anyone else in the same situation , no point in going back to the doctor as he said that was the highest dose he could give me , where do I go from here ?

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your grief.

First off let me welcome you to this community. You will receive the benefit of knowledge and experience from a lot of caring people.

I suffer from Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. And although I cannot relate to your specific pain, I understand crying all the time and the blackness of the dark hole.

In addition to meds, I need help from a therapist therapist and psychiatrist. Are you presently in counseling? If not, maybe your MD can refer you to someone.

Keep posting and let us know how you're feeling.

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I know their must be charities that help on the internet and facebook and you must take care of yourself - use your time for yourself and give yourself time to handle/control yourself - plenty of time!

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Sending a gentle hug ur way

[Bonkersy]

Hi Robbie69,

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, my son lost his son 7 years ago, I could tell you exactly what I was doing when I heard that Will was gone, I can feel it now.

I know that my son has found support and true understanding from a group called 'Daddy's With Angels',everyone involved with the group has lost a child, and was set up in recognition of the lack of support for fathers

daddyswithangels.org/uk-cou...

[Beautifulrainbow]

Hi Robbie

Sorry to hear about your loss, my neice lost her daughter,she was 5 days younger than my granddaughter, and its really hard when the birthdays come around, because although she's always thought of, it becomes harder at that particular time of year. Have you received any counselling, if not speak to your doctor and tell them your not coping, and they will set one up for you. If your in the UK they will do a home visit so your feel more relaxed, I wish you all the best, and keep talking. Xx

[Tara0707]

Have you tried berevment counselling so sorry for your loss

[welly10]

Hi robbie go back to your doctors ask for cbt or psychotherapy.he might taper you off those meds and try some other ones good luck pal

[Bonkersy]

Are you feeling any better today Robbie x

[Mia51]

Sorry for your terrible loss.I know what your going through as my son has just taken his life.I don’t bother with drs, I takes meds but don’t ask for their advice. The best help is contact compassionate friends uk.They are wonderful,we are all grieving and all know how it feels.Its good to know we are travelling the same sad journey,so you won’t feel so isolated.Love to you💔