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[jazz3601]

I think I suffer from depression but I the doubting voice in my head always stops me from talking about it. I have taken a few screening tests for depression online and they all point to me having severe depression. I know I need to talk to someone about it but I just can't force myself to do it actually saying the words are too hard. This isn't the first time I have suffered I'm not even sure if I ever really got over it or whether I was just convincing myself it was gone but it only got a little better. It is very hard for me to even write this and am battling myself on whether to post it.

[Heliza11]

Hi Jazz, I'm so glad you did decide to post this.

I really relate to what you've put, I hid my depression for years, convincing myself it would just go away. And I took these online tests, like you, and I was told I was severely depressed.

Telling somebody is the hardest part, trust me, but once you've done it, you'll be so relieved. The first person I told was my mum, and I was surprised, because she said she kind of already knew, but thought I was in denial and I would speak up when I was ready. People around you have most likely already noticed something's not right.

Please book yourself a doctor's appointment. You don't have to say "I think I'm depressed" or anything like that, talk through your symptoms, and they will take it from there. You're carrying this all yourself at the moment, which is so exhausting. Please reach out!

Know that we're all here for you and please keep me updated on what you decide to do. X

[hannah451]

You are doing the right thing by writing about it here. It takes strength to acknowledge it - I've had depression for 13 years and I have only just told colleagues and my family. It's me imposing a stigma - denied it and denied it before I went to my gp. But I realised not going was letting It control me And I wanted to take some control back

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Generally I would always advise that you talk to a GP, He is able to do a basic assessment, and suggest a treatment plan for you.

If you are low you may be given medication for several months to see how you get on.

Sometimes He may feel you need to see a CPN Nurse for some CBT. This is where you will talk out your feelings and sometimes coping techniques may be involved

I am not a GP or Specialist, you need to discuss your depression with your GP.

If you need support we have some really nice people who can comfort you and you will also be given sensitive support.

BOB

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Hello, Jazz, You are sounding over whelmed . You should see your GP first thing to eliminate any physical problems and if there are none the Doctor will advise you what to do next. What ever you think is wrong is probably exaggerated in your mind because you just keep going over and over it. When I first started having Depression and anxiety I was either in the middle of it or anticipating it, reading and talking about it also. You don't have to live this way, you will get better. Don't give up on yourself, I'll let you know when you can do that,LOL.Pam

[jazz3601]

thank you everyone that replied it's good to get it off my chest I don't feel so alone anymore and I'm going to book an appointment with my GP, I know it's going to be hard for me but this isn't a fight I can win alone your support has help push me to actual do this so thank you so much