I've been looking for a forum where I can read other peoples experiences with depression as in my life i have not a single person who truly understands me. I can and do tell my partner everything but it is just not the same, he doesn't get it or never will.
I am sick of being told 'only you can help yourself', 'its because of this', 'you need to do more things' etc. I'm so sick of it.
Anyway I have found this site through google having mainly been on NoMorePanic due to a horrid year in regards to health anxiety but the depression side of that forum isnt very big and I feel a site such as this one will be of great help to me.
My basic background is,
almost 6.5 years ago now I was diagnosed with postnatal depression. Got help from Early Years Mental Health and altogether we decided my depression was triggered to due having my child, but it was not actually in regards to my child if that makes sense, it would have come sooner or later that was just the trigger
I was on Fluoxetine for almost 5 years, then Citalopram for 4 months and then Paroxetine for 8 months. I have had ups and downs as you do, but I have never been myself since the start of this. A year ago I also got Health Anxiety which has made things so much worse. It is affecting my relationship with my family, affecting my relationship with my partner and I am extremely ashamed to say it has turned me into a bad Mam, the only person I have admitted that too is my partner. I am riddled with guilt because of it and I am just seriously fed up, lonely and confused as to where to go next. I have extreme self esteem issues (I think I may have Body Dysmorphia) and it makes things so much more difficult.
Thank you to anyone who reads this and I hope I enjoy being on here as much as I enjoyed gaining reassurance from NMP.