And the crash...

[Leo142]

just broke down in tears i knew that i couldnt pretend everything dissapeared forever but ive been doing it for abit now after i told my sister at first it seemed like it was getting better and i did not feel down or happy just neutral as i even made a post on it but i got in my game and i just broke out in tears it wasnt even something big that set me off just my friend saying he was playing with a different friend and we cant play 3 so i was like ok np and i just broke out in tears i have no reason why and feel like a idiot guess its been building for some time for that little thing to make me feel again i failed my mocks and i failed my real maths test and i just want to die not even disney music can help me and normally that makes me happyier remembering when i was little and putting in the videos and watching them its been my secret cheer up but now i have nothing to make me happy +

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Hi Leo I have been looking through your back posts but don't even know if you have seen them as you haven't come back to us. We gave you some very detailed replies there and took a lot of time and trouble with them to try and help you.

Have you read them? Have you taken any advice we offered? I am not having a go at you but there is only so much we can do here and it is pointless just repeating the same advice especially if we don't know whether you have seen it. x

[hamble99b]

please call the samaritans and talk to them, do not be alone.

samaritans.org/

Samaritans’ free helpline number is 116 123. Calls to this helpline number do not appear on phone bills.

come on here and talk to us.

It can be quiet at times, but we do care.

there are very supportive people here.

regards,

hamble

( I have posted same reply to another member too. It is just as heartfelt. I have problems with my hands atm)

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Oh dear hamble what's up? You ok? Bev xx

[Leo142]

hi everyone yes I read the comments I'm just not ready to tell someone that's why I've been posting on here

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Hi Leo thanks for coming back to us and letting us know how you are

Would it make it easier if you wrote down your feelings and thoughts instead and just gave this to someone to read first?

We don't have a magic wand I'm afraid and while we will all do our best for you there is a limit to what we can do or advise.

Can you tell us more about how you are feeling? Maybe the more you open up to us the more ready you will be to tell others. Talking is good therapy even if it's only online. x

[loggerslot]

Leo,

It's not the end of the world if you failed your real maths test. I assume you mean GCSE?

what would you like to achieve in your life, do you have a dream job you want to do, college course you want to do?

Life is a learning exercise and its on going all your life and we here are all learning. In younger age i guess it's a steep learning curve, can be stressful given the social environment but thats the time to develop your skills meeting people because they will help you when you're in college and uni, assuming you want to go to uni.

There's nothing miserable about life, it's just that other people are the way they are because they choose to behave that way towards certain people. if your friends sideline you or do walk away then let them come to you but you need to move forward and make new friends. When you grow older in your late 20s you may bump into those very people and they will ask you how you're doing.

When i was young i was always sidelined by friends, and mainly family cousins and picked on and i became a loner. growing up i realized how this is starting to affect me. not only that, a lot of people back then thought I had no hope of achieving, aka i was thick. at GCSE mocks i did not get the grades i needed for college as i only filled 1 form when the minimum was 3 forms. that was the college and course i wanted to do so I worked hard and got a C in GCSE maths 5 other passes and got in. for me that's a big achievement. I ended up doing a college course that was 90% maths so i had my work cut out big time, stressed out a bit but i had supportive tutors who knew i was determined to study. end up at uni and got a 1st class degree. those people who thought i was a none achiever, had a smack in the gob waiting for them. That is the key, "determination".

I can only give you a glimpse into my experience that seems to be similar to yours and yes, you can achieve a lot with your life and meet new friends but you need to let go of the past and move forward.

For the time being, i would suggest you speak to your parents and tell them openly how you feel and what's been going on. If you feel that they're not helping then sometimes I find tutors at school helpful to talk to because they are impartial and can give you a clear guidance on how to go forward.