You have the strength

let me tell you about my Wednesday last week:

I went to the library at college to finish some work off. I didn't meet my friend that lunch like usual. This meant that she got p**** off but played it cool over message?

I didn't understand, all I did was go and do some work for ONE lunch. But I accepted it and moved on.

Next lesson I sat next to this friend. We didn't talk, didn't look at each other. Until somebody asked what was going on between us both. That lead to my friend shouting about how I had left her isolate and alone. How i took her only friend.

This did make me upset. After all the emotion I've been pushing down and trying to bury, there was no more room.

I left the room with the excuse of needing the bathroom. As soon as I got out I hit the wall and let the angry tears roll down my face. I could hear the conversation happening within. Her shouting about what had happened at lunch, or what had not happened.

After everything that happened last year at college, I never cried. So what do i do now? There's only so much time you can spend in the bathroom. And I was not going back in with tears staining my cheeks.

I got hold of my friend, who was thankfully in a study lesson that she could leave. She met me outside of my block whilst I told her why I was crying during college.

She walked me to my tutor, where I refused to go back into lesson in the state I was in.

She walked me back to my lesson and told me to wait outside whilst she got my teacher.

We talked for 3 minutes, trying to understand the situation between the three of us whilst thinking of a solution.

I cried whilst explaining what happened during the lesson to my teacher.

The moral of this story is that you are strong.

I screamed and cried that I was not entering that room again where I had to listen to false accusations that I could not argue against as my voice was ignored.

However, I walked back into that room.

I sat back down with a smile on my face, no matter the turmoil ripping my insides apart.

I thought I couldn't do it. But I did.

You can do it to.

And after a hard day, I bought myself some trainers to make sure that smile on my face didn't fade.

Reward yourself. It does take strength to live in this world. But you will always have that strength. Even if you have to dig deep to find it.

I believe in you.

[sweetiepye]

Hello flower , Maybe you should pick battles that are a little more serious. This sounds like a lot of drama unless you're not telling all. For instance what happened last year? Is there more to the story ? Pam

[Taz2]

Love the trainers xx

[Florida1959]

Sounds a bit complicated to me, maybe pat yourself on the back for being strong, and move away from others drama, sounds to me like you are doing well , xx

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Hi flower I noticed you have deleted your account and left. I am very sorry you have done this as what happened on your post was not your fault in any way.

I think you did amazing coping with with all that and well done. We are always here for you if you decide to return. Take care sweetheart. Lil x