Hi, I haven't post in here in a while. Some things have changed. I finally got the courage(with the help of my therapist) to tell my hubby I was fed up and we need to separate. Although he don't agree he heard me. That was weeks ago. So although we still living together since I can't leave financially plus we have a daughter, I had started dating someone a month ago. I know its wrong and please don't judge. The man is my middle school crush so we known each other over 20years.
Where I went wrong is I pursued him first. It was on social media. He thought I was happily married but I told him the situation and he happily obliged. From day one it was im in love with u, blah blah and I fell for it. We went on a date then like 2 weeks later it went further (I'm keeping it real). Then he did a disappearing act. When I confronted him, he was all "it's not u, I'm goin thru things, blah blah, and I'm sorry. I forgave and we spent a little time only for his Dad to pass away(I met Dad and his daughter previously). On the day of funeral basically I wasn't needed for support as he was ok with family. I texted all that day saying I'm here for u. No response. Now I'm the last one to be selfish, as I lost my Mom in 02 so I know how it feels to lose a parent, but I also wanted my significant other there for support.
That was a week and a half ago. I got one text since then that was like "hey", to my hi. The next reply I kept it light. Then the next one I went off saying I miss u, we was just together now we apart, blah blah, and I'm sorry if this the wrong time. Well no reply from him. Since. But he posts to social media.
I'm trying to get over him but it's hard because we had no closure plus I already have depression and pmdd so this situation just makes me feel 1000x's worst. Why he have to do this to me? Feeling so sad but refuse to ever make contact again!!! I already feel like a loser cuz no one really talks me, I don't have money to do things and my life sucks.😪😪
I hope to get a response.