I'm trying my best to recover from depression but getting nowhere. Last time I posted here was over a year ago. In short I lost a relationship over a termination. Subsequently that person moved on and found someone else. The girlfriend that I had before her told me that she had two abortions and a miscarriage while she was with me. One year ago it all emerged that it all never happened. Some story she told me was it was all some PTSD from her childhood which I don't buy at all. The next one that I know did happen wouldn't have because I had already left her before she cooked the first thing up, as far as I'm concerned out of desperation to keep me. All this impacted on what happened with my next partner, and although job and money worries were rightly part of my worries, I feel with the truth I would have taken proper charge and there wouldn't have been an accident I could ill afford.
I'm so down, angry and bitter, and this is all now 2 1/2 years ago. Have been to respite centres, day hospitals after I took overdose in January. Wanted to see my counsellor from a few years back to tell her all the lies I was told but she isn't bothering to set up an appt.
feel like the only way to get over this is to find someone else cos counselling and pills not working. But at 40 with no job no money and no assets how am I ever going to find anyone?