I fell in love with a married woman and now broken-hearted and feel like dying..

[Dru916]

Past 4 to 5 months I fell in love with a married woman and she said she was going to get a divorce but maybe after she spent more time with me she woke up and end result she went back to her husband and kids.

She told me she loves me but can't be with me because of her kids and people judging her.. maybe she saw how unstable my life is and figured I wouldn't be able to support her.

As we dated she was on antidepressants from her marriage. I was the strong one and tried to keep the relationship going now with a broken heart I feel like we switched places and now I may need meds for my depresssion and suicidal thoughts. I never loved anyone as much as her. How does one get thru this process? Everyday is a struggle and last night I had one of my worst nights waking up in tears and had this fear of dying or fear for myself because I felt like dying.

I've made appointment to see a psychiatrist for possible medication. Seeing a therapist isn't helping me much maybe it's too new.

I hate to cause any burden to my family and friends and they prob feel this is a broken record going on over the past 5 months.

I've been thru a lot of shiet but this is by far the most difficult situation I've ever been thru.. can someone help me or help me cope on what I can do.. maybe from someone with personal experience??

[Satsuma]

It is never a good idea to get with anyone who is married. A lesson learnt here for you I feel. I have never had an affair but I imagine it would be a tense experience and also intense too which is not an ideal foundation. I am sorry to hear of your hurt and heartbreak. I would advise you to go see your GP. You will get over this. You will have to be patient and give yourself time to heal.

[Goldfish_]

Hang on in there, give it time. Keep busy with work exercise distractions. It will all settle indue course

[Blueshirt]

I understand how you must feel; I have been there. Reading what you wrote brought back to me those feelings I too felt. It's horrible, I know. Don't beat yourself up and try to watch a few different television programmes that take your mind off things. Try a spot of writing; either about yourself or making up a character and describing his life. Or go to see a film one afternoon. Get out of your house/flat and have a walk around. Grab a coffee and have a sit down and read the paper. There will be good days again, even if it doesn't seem likely right now. Don't beat yourself up; be kind to yourself and take time for yourself. Do a few things to spoil yourself. Good luck

[Hidden]

Hello

All I can really say is this woman was not for you, She had obligations of Her Families Love and Her Husbands Needs

If you are feeling the need to end your life or cause yourself harm call the NHS Helpline on Tel 111. They will talk with you and work out if you need help, they can also call out a Crisis Team to visit you. If you need a place of safety they can help with that as well.

If you feel you need to talk to your GP call the Surgery and there will be a GP on duty and He will also be able to help in other ways. You can of course talk to your GP on Monday and ask for an urgent appointment.

When you see your GP make a list out of all your fears and concerns, this will help you not deviate from what you want to say

You could talk to the Samaritans, although they will just listen and try and move you on to a more settled phase. The NHS is more a dynamic tool to help you as you can ask if you could be put in a place of Safety

Look after yourself, we are Here to Talk if needed

Keep a hold

BOB

[kinikia95]

Personal experience here and not proud to say. You dodged a bullet and she did you a favor. Even if you had got what you think you wanted you would have ended up in a huge neverending mess especially when there are children involved. If she tries to come back, as they often do, you should definitely leave it alone. It's hard now but you're saving yourself years of grief. If you had gotten together it would never have been okay. People like her are selfish, they always will be, and they will never be able to fully give you what you need. I'm sure you're a nice person and you got yourself into a bad situation and you're better off leaving it alone regardless of how much it hurts now. I'm sorry you're going through this but it's a good thing it ended when it did.

[Ruby1971]

Sorry to hear that but going with a married person ends up with sadness, if you need to talk I am here for you please try and be strong