Still Struggling...

[crazycara]

Hello fellow peers,

If you'd read my post earlier on in the week then you know where I'm coming from...

I'm still really struggling, I don't even know why. What has put me back so far? Yesterday I started crying for no apparent reason straight after me and my boyfriend had a bit of... well you know... I don't understand it.

I just burst out with I don't want to leave, and well it just kind of ruined the whole magical time of it afterwards really.

Right now, I'm still in bed struggling to get up and motivated, I feel like I'm overwhelmed but there isn't anything to feel that way.

Feel like I'm just in a bad rut atm, keep getting rejected from jobs I am easily qualifed for and actually really excited about getting (part time), that's been getting me down lately, because as a student, you desperately need the money, and I'm currently living on my savings that I've put away to pay for my bike, insurance, phone bill etc every month, so I dont spend it on anything.

Boyfriend is extremely ill - to the point where I'm starting to get worried, it's supposed to be just a cold yet everytime he coughs he nearly loses he's balance and needs to hold on to the wall for support, then gets light headed. It sounds horrible like he's about to hack up a lung. He's been to the doctors but they've just given him penicillin which he's been taking since late monday, and he says there is no improvement. I've just never seen him so ill.

I don't even know what I'm babbling about, think I just needed to let everything out again.

[Gambit62]

Sorry to hear that you are feeling that life is so tough at the moment.

It sounds like your boyfriend actually has a chest infection rather than a straight cold - unlikely that the doctor would give him penicillin for a simple cold as a cold is a virus and penicillin's work on bacterial infection. A chest infection would fit with the coughing and the dizziness - even if it is bacterial it is unlikely to be anything to worry about as the penicillin would normally clear it but it will take a few days to start working. The doctor probably told him to give it a week and if it hasn't improved come back - and it is really important that he finishes the course of penicillin in full and doesn't give up on it even if it doesn't seem to be having any effect.

A chest infection can really knock you out because it probably means that his lungs aren't transferring oxygen to his blood as efficiently. I know it may seem scary but I wouldn't start to panic yet - just make sure that he doesn't stop part way through the course of penicillin.

With depression there doesn't actually have to be a reason. Sometimes it just hits you and other days you are okay. Try to take it as it comes and not make it worse by worrying about it - it is only social convention that says crying under the duvet is a bad thing. Hope you did manage to make it out of bed - if only to make yourself a drink and a bite to eat.

[ThemysciraDrive]

Hi Cara. Can't really do anything but echo Gambit's post - don't beat yourself up for feeling very down. Depression doesn't have to have reasons - if only it were that simple!!

Do you get/have you had any treatment for it?

[Photogeek]

Hi Cara

Sorry to hear you feel so down. That's Depression some days are.ike that. It's

Pointless feeling bad and guilty about it, try and just accept where you are at this moment.

And just go with the flow.

Try and concentrate on yourself and if your boyfriend is still so ill , he should go

Back to the Doctor. I am not sure if you are getting any help for your Depression?

Maybe a visit to your own GP would help you.

Take care .

Hannah

[Suzie40]

Hi Cara

Sorry things are so tough for you just now. The penicillin probably just needs time to take effect. See how he is by the weekend and if you don't think he's getting better, he might need another dose, or possibly even a stronger one.

I used to cry after sex. Not sure why. I don't have sex any more so can't say whether or not it still happens!

I remember how hard it is being a student, in terms of finances. Hope something comes your way soon x

[crazycara]

hey thanks guys. I know I shouldn't worry, just can't help it, I've never seen him this ill before. I need to make arrangements to see my doctor again anyway, so i'll bring this all up, thanks for the support, hope you are all well.

x