Thank you to everyone who commented or messaged me.
Ive been in bits for days, went the gym last night and forgot about it all for a bit then dreaded coming home..it hit me like a tonne of bricks again. Felt like the way i used to dread coming home when my dad was there.
My mum took him to the vets again today and has to take him again on sat.
Hes not the same cat but hes still interested but like hes not got the full energy from like a few weeks ago.
I dont want to get my hopes up but think we are just going to take it day by day.
I had a panic attack on sunday i couldnt breathe from crying - my face ached so bad like to the point i had to take tablets. I was nearly sick, i was a state. tried to keep it together for work but got upset when i got home...then i went the gym.
Reading everyones comments was so hard and upsetting but thank you to everyone for caring and offering support. I know its hard to know what to say so i appreciate that.
I hope you will all still be there for me when its time. I love him so much.