In fact, my work problems are such that the business I am part-owner of may have to close. Things aren’t that good at home, either, and I am very worried about my depressive behaviour is affecting our two little girls, ages 8 and 4.
This is hardly the first time that my life has gotten so out of control, however, for I have a long history of personal problems. In fact, before I was married, and was still living in the U.S., I was in therapy for several years, plus going to self-help groups. At one point, I was even hospitalized for depression for 30 days, followed by six months in a half-way house afterwards.
I got married at age 44, though, after which I stopped going to therapy. We also eventually moved abroad, to Poland. I enjoy living here very much, leastwise, I usually do, anyway.
At age 49, I was also diagnosed with Adult Attention Deficit Disorder. The medication was an instant help. However, I went off my medication five weeks ago, but I am finally getting a new prescription tomorrow
To sum up then, with the help of therapy and medication, I have come a long way over the decades. I very much enjoy living abroad. Nevertheless, I still often have severe problems with depression and self-defeating behaviors.
Right now, there are tremendous problems at both work and home which I am running away from. I have no one to talk to about any of this. I am hoping this forum might help give me some emotional support so I can exchange my self-destructive behaviours for some positive ones.
For starters, I will make myself something to eat.
- RemainNeutral
Krakow, Poland
June 6, 2013