i need help from someone

[Nwisre]

I have problems with my family; my mother is controlling, and my father wants me to obey her orders even if it consumes all my time. He treats me poorly when I refuse to comply with her commands. Additionally, they always belittle my actions towards them, despite fulfilling my duties with them wholeheartedly. They cannot live without me, and since I was young, they have burdened me with responsibility, leading to various personality disorders, including narcissism and perfectionism. I've become a toxic person even in my personal relationships. Now, I feel a mental breakdown and don't know what to do, knowing that I am a second-year high school student and cannot live on my own. Thank you, and I apologize for wasting your time reading about my trivial problems that shouldn't be discussed, but my emotional side prevailed, making me talk about them.

[fredwgarfield]

Go talk to your doctor… or call the hotline for mental health in your area for help.

[Omniscient1]

As Fredwgarfield says, go talk to someone,what you describe is not unusual, but better to talk face to face with someone. Can your school put you in touch with a counsellor?

[LondonB]

You definitely need to speak with a therapist.

There are great mental health hotlines as starting point

[hedgehogan]

As a high school student I am assuming you don't have much money to see health professionals on your own if they are not subsidised. Speak to a trusted adult if you have someone like this in your life e.g. trusted relatives, coaches, or teachers etc. If not, talking to a health or mental health hotline can possibly help and sometimes they may be able to suggest things you can do to improve your situation or refer you to social agencies where you can get some support, depends on where you are based

Best of luck, it's definitely worthwhile talking to someone about it

[Azymuth]

How old are you?

[jaglad]

You have made a good start by coming here to ask for advice.

Like others have said you are best talking with a trusted adult.

Depending where you are in the world there are options available to you. School and Health Professionals are a good place to start.

Good luck and don't give up.

[IPNH]

It's understand and totally valid for you to feel the way you do. It sounds like the relationship with your parents isn't healthy. It is not right for you to be expected to deal with this. Unfortunately if you cannot live elsewhere or leave then it is likely that you will have to make the best of it for a couple of years. Get a job and find some activities to keep you away from home for now. Speak to the school counselor about this if you can. Save money and make a plan to move out. If you can obtain therapy at some point without your parents permission then continue with it so you can learn how to enforce your limits and boundaries with them. You can find other people to be your friends and family to have healthy relationships with. Do your best with other people so you don't have to feel bad about anything you do. Again call a helpline and discuss with your doctor. I'm unsure if the laws regarding mental health in your area but I know some places it is protected from anyone without consent.