Sex and Mental Health

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Hi everyone, This website is exactly what I've been looking for!

Around 3 years ago I have my first panic attack and was suicidal during this time. I was prescribed Sertraline which I still take to this day..

Fast forward a year and I found myself signing up to dating apps, hookup apps and apps like Kik, i supposed i should mention I'm married and have 2 beautiful daughters.

This is something I have been doing secretly, and I was finally caught by my wife when I was video calling a woman I met online. I was very drunk and had taken cocaine for the first time in over 10 years.

I am now seeking therapy for complex PTSD due to my up bringing and help with how toxic my family environment was.

The issue I have is my wife (who is very intellingent) will not forgive me for what I have done. I suppose I'm looking for advice on how I can be stable and assure that what I did wasnt due to me wanting to leave my marriage and be able to work on my need for emotional stability.

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I hope that therapy helps you to deal with the issues of your youth. It is the right path to take. Perhaps your wife will come round to forgive you with the help, perhaps, of couples counselling once you have progressed down your therapy path. Take care.