I'm feeling lonely and depressed

[Joyce-15]

I'm glad to be here. I've been experiencing depression since my breakup. I met him three years ago,we were very close and opened up to each other,most times I talked to his mom through phone call he also do the same with my mom, I was happy with him and we love each other but because of the friendship nobody want to voice out. Eventually, we became lovers but at that time he knows I was single and he also had misunderstanding with his girlfriend which leads to break up. To cut the long story short, suddenly the lady started realizing her mistakes and begging him to forgive her.He told me he was confused because he still love her and also he loves me.I didn't have any mind to further my education but he advised me to further my education and have one hand work and promised to support me with both. Ever since this lady came back,she started confusing him and he Changed to me totally. I begged him even when I did nothing but I've sleepless night because of him. I called him severally to ask for my offense but he keeps saying he will change and keeps begging me to be patient with him. I love him so much. I relocated because of this guy so that I can further my education and learn work. I started my HND program in health information management and started learning tailoring as well without his support. I did everything myself because he already motivated me to do it. We dated more than a year before this issue started happening. The more he hurt me with his words and attitude, the more I love him. This year I complained about not seeing him for the past 6months but he ended up breaking up with me because I couldn't understand his nature of work comparing to the other lady. I begged him a lot but he insisted. That day I couldn't sleep I started thinking and having chest pain,I went to hospital for X-ray I was diagnosed to go for Echocardiography. I was told not to use any drug but avoid thinking or anything that will makes me sad,and prescribed drug for the chest pain. Last month I saw it on his status that he proposed to this same lady and we just broke up last three months. I cried bitterly and called him but he told me ,he has directed all his love to someone else. Ever since we started dating I can't say I enjoy the relationship because of this lady. I wish we remain as friends like before. I'm lonely and depressed,I cried everyday and wasn't be able to go to class for the past two months after the separation, it's affecting my mental health,my family is not here, my mom is sick and I couldn't discuss this with her. The more I feel hurt the more I love him . I hate the way I am. I'm feeling drained and hopeless 😭 nothing motivate me anymore. Everyday feels empty and painful. I lost interest in everything. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm a Final year student. Please how can I manage this feelings and rebuild my self ? Please

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. Can you talk to your primary care physician? You may benefit from medication and/or counseling.

[Joyce-15 in reply to gajh]

I can't express the pains I'm going through when I'm with someone, I don't know why . That's what is killing me please just say anything that can help me to move on with my life

[gajh in reply to Joyce-15]

I think that talking about it is going to help you to move on with your life. Do you have anyone to talk to about it? That is why I suggested a counselor.

[Joyce-15 in reply to gajh]

I understand your point

[gajh in reply to Joyce-15]

I just don't want you to have to go through it all alone. You deserve support.

[Joyce-15 in reply to gajh]

I will try and go for counseling

[irwmn2]

Heyyy I want you to remember that this thing happened to you for a reason, right now you are going through this sad phrase of your life because this is preparing you for better things in future. Let him go girl, let him go. Why do you need a guy who is not sure about his feelings?!? Don't you deserve a guy who only and only loves you and appreciates you? I honestly would not want to be with a guy who tells me that he is between me and another girl, if he loved me, he wouldn't be indecisive. That is it. Sometimes we need to get our heartbroken in order to appreciate good people that will come in our way. Try to get your energy and head back, go on walks, go to gym, take care of yourself, please. Sending you much love, you got this girl! 💪🏻🩷

[Joyce-15 in reply to irwmn2]

Thank you so much . I really appreciate