so here I am. The days are running together for me. The only time I don’t feel like dying is from 6pm on because I know I’m going to be asleep soon after.
I’ve been out of work for over a month now due to my depression and pain but suffering for 5 months. I have such brain fog I can’t even get it together to get to the social security office to file for disability and I screw it up online. Does anyone have disability for MDD?
the mornings are the hardest for me. Anyone else? I just have nothing to do. I’d clean but my fibromyalgia and arthritis keep me from being able to. My house is getting harder to keep up with.
What keeps everyone holding on? I have a 26 yr old son who lives with me because he can’t afford to live on his own. He is on the autistic spectrum. Videographer. He’s totally independent other than limited income due to free lancing and he has no friends because he is socially a bit awkward.
I have a 23 yr old son who is doing good and lives independently and has a good job so I don’t worry about him.
Anyway, everyday I feel like a coward because I think that one day I can always throw my arms up. I will run out of money in a year if I’m not better and functioning in society again.
Just decided to vent here in case anyone else is having a morning where they don’t know what to do with themselves.