Feeling weird

[Rufus07]

horrible day, can’t get out of bed, hysterically crying. It feels like I have mental pain, not physical pain running through out my body! Kind of a very scary feeling. It’s hard to explain. Anyone experienced this before? I can’t get a grip and I feeling like I’m literally falling apart!

[curly-quavers]

Hello , yes I have been there and did use booze to try block things out for me, but only starting on medication has eased this feeling. Going through menopause, losing my parents, just broke me. Since 2019 I have tried many meds, and felt like a zombie on them, but just past 6 weeks I am on fluoxitine and so far, been irritated, headaches, hot flushes for up to 5 weeks, but this seems to be easing off, and I actually feel like doing things. Not alot as i dont want to go out but, more aware that things need to be done around me, like cleaning and washing my clothes. I found taking time for myself without any distractions can help if this is possible. I hope you find a way forward.🙂

[Rufus07 in reply to curly-quavers]

Thank you! I really appreciate your comments. We sound very much alike.

[Amiwrong]

hi Rufus07. I struggled all weekend to get out of bed. Really had a couple of bad mental health days. It just hits like a brick wall sometimes and I don’t know why. I mean I can sit and spill out everything that makes me sad, but why the roller coaster?? Maybe it’s hormone fluctuations, maybe it’s guilt, maybe it’s the weather, maybe I’m dreading something, but I never know.

I know i often say im physically and mentally exhausted, but I have never defined my mental state as painful, which is weird because I guess it is. I mean sometimes it feels like my brain will explode because the amount of emotional information it feels like it is holding onto is overwhelming. Crying is your body’s way of trying to release the “pain”. Like a defence mechanism.

I just feel like we have to allow ourselves to have those days. I spent all of Saturday and much of yesterday feeling guilty and thinking about all the things that I should be doing. Finally I just told myself to just let it go. Allow myself to be ok having these days, and stop trying to fight it.

Of course our main goal is always to heal and feel better from the depression, but that’s wasn’t going to happen this weekend lol.

Take one day at a time 🌺

[Rufus07 in reply to Amiwrong]

Was up all night cause I slept all day yesterday. What a joy that was! Every thought, concern, worry running through my head. It was torture! How do we turn our minds off? Oh if only there was a magic button!

[Amiwrong]

I wish I knew. I mean there’s all the advice like breathing exercises, self talk, but ultimately perhaps getting out of bed to distract yourself with something, even tv. Challenging the negative talk may help some people. My therapist suggested shaking it off (well she suggested it for something else), so like shaking each body part in hopes of snapping you out of the spiralling mindset. I don’t think I have any other ideas, but I think we just keep trying